#midnightstuff

[thaloy]

deutsch

Ich spreche Deutsch aber ich bin so-so. Ich bin hungrig und ich bin traurig. Ich werde traurig weg essen. Ich schreibe das auf Deutsch, damit eine bestimmte Person das nicht lesen kann. wie, warum und wann ist das passiert. Du steckst jetzt in meinem Kopf fest und es stört mich. Ich kümmere mich nicht einmal um meine Familie, aber irgendwie kümmert es mich. Du hattest letzte Nacht eine Verbindung, die mich verärgert hat, aber was mich verärgert hat war, dass es nach unserem Date war. Ich weine nicht darüber, weil ein Typ einen Schwanz braucht, weißt du. was du vor kurzem geschrieben hast, war zu relatabel, ich sah nur ein bisschen, aber ich möchte mehr lesen

[thaloy]

ow 2

woke up at 1:15 am to a text „please don’t be upset“ ladies who‘s not upset bc they saw this happen with the exact same person weeks before 🙃 wastes gas only for this god damn kimono... waiting for a reply

[thaloy]

ow

Not upset but kinda am, first date went well but he doesn’t know how he f e e l s!1! So that’s upsetting but the Sagittarius optimism and non-commitment in me is like you’ll live on but my brain is saying god dammit I went out there for most of my day off but I had a fun time and bought a fabulous kimono..... we kissed and I was just a ball of anxiety and awkwardness, I can’t keep eye contact and just g a h. He’s cute and has a great personality but what about me? I’m not sure of myself and AHHH! I thought we vibed well idk. I did a tarot reading last week and the readings are coming true... judgement day

[thaloy]

wow

i‘m excited, happy, and scared. I have a date with oomf Saturday and we‘re meeting in the middle bc we live a bit a ways. He’s really cute and out of my league idk if I can live up to the guy he tried going out with I’m scared I guess???

[thaloy]

tarot

so oomf did a tarot reading and I haven’t opened my own deck in months. I decided today would be a good today for a reading. I know I met this guy only two weeks ago but my feelings are so mixed it’s weird. I did the simple Q&A format where it presents the situation as the first card, second is obstacles etc etc... and the last one is effect on you. I got the Upright Two Swords which means a truce.... his reading he said was basically the same... we asked the same question... it was about eachother now idk if it’s some Holy Ghost, catholic, Muslim, Native American etc. but is this a sign? I‘ve appeared on his ocd notes which is idk I wanna say weird but heartfelt, I’m impacting someone’s life and it’s weird to me. I’ve always been the background ensemble character that can kill it (literally) but to see that im affect someone is weird... he‘s also worried about my mental state which is kinda cute.... we both don’t know what we are to eachother so that’s funny and ironic

[thaloy]

feelings

idk idk idk idk idk, why did i become so worried about you? Do i really have feelings? Why did you have the panic stuck though? Was it me? What happened? And I attracted to you?? I don’t know, I popped up in your notes and somehow you’re popping into my head... what’s going on this seems poetic but it really isn’t... what is going on

[thaloy]

hi Adam

if you’re seeing this u good, idk why i‘m letting you on my most personal account but hey

[thaloy]

emotional oomf

seeing a post that my friend Jonny made hit me in the gut. seeing how my friends of three years will be gone soon and how this year might be the last time I see my friends of 5+ years.... it’s going to be an emotional roller coaster of a year.... I already have been very depressed this past week and it’s crazy

it’s Not Midnight but idc