Its february 13, and im drinking by myself because
1) a year ago from today, i spent my first night inpatient in the psychiatric unit
2) tomorrow is going to be the worst valentines day because i probably cant see my fucking boyfriend
3) snow fucking sucks
4) my ex texted me this morning and reminded me how shitty i am compared to his perfect ass life
5) now my other ex is making me feel like shit because hes just annoying and please leave me alone damnit
6) high school ends soon and i have no idea what im gonna do with myself or my life
7) im sad and no one is helping me
8) i wish i wasnt posting this on tumblr because i wish my boyfriend knew i am going through shit right now and i need him to comfort me, somehow. but no, he has no idea and i wont bother him lol
9) nine is my favorite number. im gonna buy myself white roses tomorrow cause i am still alone on valentines day and i dont think my dad is going to get them anymore and god damnit my bf doesnt know
fuck