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What do you want?

You know what I want, what I desire, why do you keep it from me?

You don't deserve it, you don't need it, all it does is distract you

I know that...but how am to continue without it? I don't know how...

Belive in them and they will do the same, raise their spirits from the dust and the shall do the same, you are not alone, you never were

I know, I know......but he's so insistent, so loud, it's hard to not listen

The problem isn't of you listening little one, it's if you believe his words but the fact that you're speakeling to me to me has proven you don't, so march on and never forget

Thank you, I can't give up yet, it's too early for that, my eyes have just opened

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Semper Anticus

Hot then cold, alive then dead, bright then dark

Seemingly never ending, this cycle of mine

Upon this world I want to leave my mark

But it seems as if I cannot cross this line

Upwards I look to where the angels hark

But upon devils I fall, among them is where I feel fine

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My tim

How my heart warms when I hear their voice

How I long to make you proud of me!

Before I do, I must make a choice

Break my chains, for I need no key

Or lose myself, living in tears with no voice

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Life

Such an incomprehensible thing

Always shifting and twisting

Yet always the same, steady flow

Over before you'll ever know

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Gently now little one

I know, I know.....or at least that's what I always say but nonetheless thank you for reminding me

That's because I believe in you, you have a tendency to stray but don't worry, I'm here to help you keep balance

It's just hard to keep an eye on the scales, especially when I'm so distracted

It's alright, take a deep breath and slow down just a bit, everything takes time something which is bountiful

Yes, you're right, I need to take this time to focus, I'm just young and eager but with time I'll fill these shoes set out for me

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Sometimes I'm afraid of not seeing tomorrow

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So much

There's so much I want to share, want to experience, learn and create but I fear I'll never live up to those dreams, especially when there's already so many talented people in the fields of stuff I like. I want to write poetry but it just seems my words aren't enough... I want to write and create stories for the world to enjoy as it fills their heads with worlds painted stroke by stroke witihn their minds but the world's other have created are already so well known and loved so who would ever care about mine? I want to reach out and speak to to others but they don't know me nor would want too.. I'm no one special, I have no money, status, I don't have any particular skills, I'm just a nodody floating silently through life like a spectre of flesh and blood, Schrodingers loser.

I wish I could say this was a rant but in all honesty, I guess it's just a cry for help, I don't know what to do anymore.....but I don't just want to give up either, I can't just throw all my practice and passion, yet I'm to afraid to really create because I'm just so intimidated that if I put my heart and soul it's just gonna be degraded and thrown in the mud. I honestly just wish I had someone intimate enough to talk about these things to, I'm just so lost, my life's, my work, my passion....it's all just crumbling.

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It's always this hour

This hour before night and day, when the world tips the scale towards being awake always bringing with it my curiosity and passion

With every sunrise I am there to meet the harbinger of light and warmth

Forever peaceful and calm, I greet the dusk with well temered patience as I settle down for the night

As the other half of our eye closes, a constant daily thing that seems to be different depending on perspective but yet no one is right about its happening

Our sun is more attractive the you'd think being able to draw out such thought when so far away