20 January 2017 - Sungmin's Blog Update
Dear ELF, To all the ELF out there, it has been a long time since we last met, this is Sungmin. It has been 3 weeks since I discharged from the army. I haven't been able to greet you all formally during this period! "When was the last time I was able to greet you all with ease? " This thought popped up in my mind. With a heavy heart, I have to admit that everything that had happened is all my fault... Time has passed by faster than expected, tomorrow (21st) will be my first official schedule. Compared to the feelings that bubble up when I stand before you all as a member of Super Junior, I have been pondering and thinking a lot, I'm writing this after finally organising my thoughts. I should be excited to be standing before you on stage, but in reality, I have been plagued with worries if I should even be on stage at such a fast pace... Thus the reality that a gap has appeared between us came crushing down. My irrational behaviour during my announcement of my marriage and during my wedding ceremony, has brought much pain to some of you... These were the outcome due to my lack of courage in facing the music, I hesitated to apologise despite feeling apologetic and sad, and watched silently as time flitted by. Once again, I sincerely apologise. Yet I yearn to close the gap that has appeared between us. I have been racking my brain, thinking of ways to shrink the distance between us; In the end I decided to come back as a member of Super Junior, to help my team create more opportunities... Bearing in mind that this is a chance for me to meet you guys again, I have been doing my best to present an excellent stage, hoping to lighten up your spirits. If I repeat this process a few times, will the gap between us disappear? I thought blankly... Was It the right decision to reappear suddenly in front of you guys as a member of Super Junior? There might be people who are not comfortable with my appearance, I even had a meeting with my company to discuss if I should withdraw from this official schedule... Yet if I withdraw from the this schedule, it would be grossly unfair for my fans who have been anticipating for my come back with eager hearts. My team members have also showed their support for me to attend the schedule, and I'm forever grateful for that, hence I've plucked up my courage. In the future I will work hard to meet you guys with my team members. Please just view this entry with a light heart. Stay warm and don't catch a cold in this chilly weather. I hope... We will meet with smiles on our faces. Korean ➡️ Chinese CR: 火焰_flaminELF团站