"And you are still not listening."
Even after hearing everything she had to convey about her unease, he still clung onto the belief that he is justified for wearing away at her. That he had no part to play for her pain. To believe that it bears no validity just because he believed his intentions were not to hurt still does not justify nor diminish the fact that it does.
What good is there to be achieved when he alone continues to shirk responsibility under the pretext of 'explaining his perspective'?
"You are doing exactly what you claim to not be doing. If you truly cared for my opinions or me even the slightest, you would acknowledge that you have caused me pain. Not prioritise explaining why you don't think you have or why I should see that you were not trying to."
Was this how he treats her sister too? Or was it just because it is her that warrants such cruelty?
"I do not need you to instill doubt in me. I alone am able to create such doubts, to analyse the situation and seek differing perspectives to close gaps in what I could not. If you believe that you have been fulfilling your role as an advisor, then you are sorely mistaken. All that you have done, all that you continue to do, is suffocate me. To poison me with so much distrust over my own capabilities that I hesitate and hesitate even further to conduct anything at all. That constant mistreatment is not something that would 'aid me in pushing past my doubts' or 'drive me towards improvements'. My ability to learn, to push past my doubts have all been hampered by your constant torment."
Ridiculous.
"I am not Makoto. I will never be her. I will never govern Inazuma the way she does. And I do not require you to make up whatever it is that you think I need. If you truly cared, you would ask what I needed and how best you could aid me. If you truly cared, you would accept that all your efforts to 'help' have only worsened things. If you truly cared, you would neither patronise me nor force me into mind games in order to ascertain what you meant. If you truly cared, you would trust me to do what is best for the people and plainly explained or guide me into areas where I am unable to relate to. Instead of speaking in vague expectation and then punishing me for not comprehending. You say your intentions were to aid, yet I only see your penchant for acting above all others and thinking you know better. And until you can reflect on where it is you have failed on your part to guide me, until you can reflect on how it is that you were cruel, I do not think we will be able to hold that conversation on equal terms. You are not hearing me. You are telling me how all you do was for my own good: And I am telling you now that it is not."
She may not be the perfect archon, nor is she one that her people deserved. But at the end of the day, Ei continues to persist in spite of never wishing to step into her sister's role in the first place. It is laughable for one who does not bear the weight of the entire nation on their shoulders to point, criticise, judge, preach and punish her for her efforts.
"What you have done is no different from what members of the Commission who colluded with the Fatui had done with the Shogun. Think about that."
