#mirai thoughts

[therealmirai]

Mirai thoughts #2

Grrrrrr overstimulated. The fact that I do it to myself even when I have a break dosen't help. I do think about how much better life could be if I wasn't addicted to my phone. But then again it's not the phone that is the problem.

One step at a time...my ultimate goal is to only go online on my laptop for shit like discord youtube etc. Gonna make some fucking potatoes and do things and think. Despite being interested in computers and technology in general I've always disliked devices, especially portable ones.

I've always disliked being photographed too - not liking the idea of someone uploading my face in the background by accident. It was a matter of survival back then. I still much prefer blending in and being invisible to this day. One thing I share in common with my media is that my civilian outfit did make me invisible. I could pull the hood up and no one would look at me twice. And a phone is the opposite of being invisible. I didn't even have any social medias back then...I had a handheld comms device that could basically only make calls not sure if it could even send messages. A tracker so a few people knew where i was while i carried it. Having a smartphone as a villain...ha...that phone is gonna break within a day, not to mention its a smartphone. Fucking...nah.

What did I do in my free time back then?

.. Geting drunk a lot...vandalism...bragging to people about how important I was cause of my 'master'...yk what maybe its not that bad I go on my phone these days. 💀 in comparison this habit is far less bad.

I've never stayed still and just let things be. I always have to be rushing forward to do something. But I don't have to. I can chill the fuck out. Now it's something I don't know how to do...even when I'm chilling out I always find something to do like making servers, art commissions, finding people from my media etc. This isnt chilling out. I need to learn how to chill out.

How does one chill the fuck out? I guess mindset is part of it. I mean I do have adhd so its either get things done at supersonic speed at 10000 focus or nothing. I really want to learn how to chill out properly.

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Joined the Genshin impact subreddit and everyone’s thirsting for Mona and Kequing. And I mean, I don’t blame them

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I’m always so scared to comment on YouTube or Reddit because people always try to fight me. I never say anything rude or controversial either. I’m pretty sure I can say I like pink and people will try to fight me

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When planning out my Genshin impact team i didn’t want to include Kaeya, but his gorgeous voice won me over

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(Ace Attorney)

I can’t stand the post trilogy games rant

4 is pretty good. Anyways they suck. The original trilogy had such a nice complete storyline, and post trilogy storyline is terrible. Everyone’s backstory in AA5 was executed decently except for Apollo. I really liked his backstory in AA4. But they keep adding onto his backstory and now he reminds me of that joke about the one OC who has everything bad happen to them. Also playing as more then two people doesn’t go well at all. Sahdmahdi (I don’t know how to spell his name, I love his hair though) is a jerk. All the other prosecutors are a jerk at first but their lovable, he’s just rude. They should’ve kept more Klavier in and they ruined his voice in AA5. They ruined everyone’s voices from before AA5.

All the absurdity from the original trilogy feels like it’s gone. It’s still pretty crazy but it just feels forced. Also all the suspense feels way too forced.

Apollo and Athena are too good at their job. That was a big part of why I like the original trilogy. Your just scraping by as Phoenix, but with Apollo and Athena it’s considerably less so. I feel more connected to Phoenix because of that. As soon as you start doing good, something crazy happens ( Going back to original trilogy absurdity) and your desperately trying to get back on your feet. But with Apollo and Athena something considerably less crazy happens and you quickly recover. There’s no tension with them

I adored the trilogy soundtrack. I would stop in the middle of playing and just listen. AA4 had a good soundtrack and I really liked the noise when something bad happened to Klavier and he shakes his head. But anyways it’s not bad after that but it’s not great. There’s nothing wrong with it, it’s just not nearly as good as before.

The best thing about post trilogy is Trucy. Trucys great. But except for Trucy hating the post trilogy games is so conflicting for me because I love the characters. The only good thing AA6 did was Trucys case. I did like that case and I loved the bunny and bat girls in it. Also the Trucy content makes it even better