Evie has died ( Mal or Jay or Carlos ) - mirrorcharmed
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“you’re lying–” she’s shaking her head. no, no, no. she won’t believe it. if she lost her best friend, her other half, she would know. she would FEEL it. and maybe, deep down she does. but she’s just in denial. because she doesn’t want to believe it. because if she comes to terms with this, she doesn’t know what she’ll do. because out of their entire group, evie was her voice of reason. the one who pulled her into the light, who brought out the goodness she had buried deep inside. and if she didn’t have her around. she was afraid of becoming who she once was in grief. she’s still shaking her head, the tears streaming down her cheeks as she tries to hold back her sobs. “s-she not. stop saying that! s-she can’t be.” because there wasn’t much in mal’s life that she loved the way she loved evie. and she could feel her heart shattering in her chest with coming to the realiziation that she truly had lost her best friend. “s-she’s not….she’s not….” and now mal had finally broken down in nothing but hot tears and sobs.
the first thing jay did was grab doug by the shoulders, squeezing him a little too hard. “don’t screw with me kid, i’ll break you in two.” jay didn’t mean to come off so aggressive, but he knew, that this wasn’t something anyone would lie about. and yet, he couldn’t bring himself to truly believe it. jay wasn’t sure it was possible to love anything, but he knew for a fact that he did love evie. and it was something he never go the chance to say to her, and now he’d never get that chance. and coming to the realization that he’d lost the only person he loved hit him hard. and instead of crying like a normal person should, jay wouldn’t. he wasn’t good at dealing with his emotions, especially something on this level. Instead he pushed the other to the ground roughly and went back to his dorm, and that’s when all his grief turned into anger and began breaking and smashing everything he could get his hands on until his room looked like a tornado hit. and then once he was done, everything else finally hit him, and he broke down.
carlos didn’t have any friends before he met evie. she was truly the only friend she had, like a sister he’d never had. so when the news came to him, of course, he didn’t believe it. he couldn’t, no he didn’t want to. “s-stop saying that! she’s not dead.” he barely managed to choke down the words. he was already in tears despite his denial of the situation. as much as he didn’t want to come to term with this, deep down, he knew it was true. because this wasn’t something anyone would have the heart to lie about. but now now that he was actually coming to believe it, he could feel his knees buckle. and he was already on the floor on his knees. his own arms wrapped around himself as he couldn’t stop sobbing. “she’s not dead, she’s not dead, she can’t be—” he sobbed to himself. he could feel the heaviness in his chest. he’s lost his best friend, his sister, and he just didn’t know how to handle the loss.
