Mar 29, 2015
Sacha cures all.
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Sacha cures all.
Sacha introduced me to AHS and it's so good HOW haven't I seen it already it's so fuckeD up (we're watching Asylum) 💀😈🌙
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I’m off to hang in the city for the afternoon with my two favourite ladies!
I can’t think of a better way to spend my day.
Off to drink coffee w my 2 favourite girls! 💛☕️🌞
So!! V!! Happy!!!
I've had the best day, pals. I met up with my girl Tessa (we met in IP during my first ever admission) who lives 3 hours away. This girl is amazing. She's drop dead gorgeous, is hilarious and intelligent and has such a bright future ahead of her. I love her and want to protect her as though she were my little sister. We sat in a cafe and had our sandwiches for lunch (which my mum expertly made for us) and caught up. We talked about boys and parties and fashion and it was so blissfully normal. And guess what I did? For the first time in TWO AND A HALF YEARS I ate my sandwich NORMALLY and PROPERLY. I took a full bite! No picking, eating it inside out- nope, I ain't got time for that! It felt so great and I know it probably seems like nothing but it's actually a huge deal because I've been unable to break that habit. We met up with Sacha and got frozen yogurt at Yo-Chi. I had banana-soybean, dark chocolate and coconut, and straight coconut yogurt with coffee beans covered in chocolate, strawberry poppy balls, muesli and sprinkles (because yolo am I right ladies)! We sat for over an hour, just chatting and laughing and taking ridiculous photos. These two girls are so, so important to me. They've been an important part of my life for so long and we've seen each other in all our forms. It was great to see Tessa because we only get to see each other every few months yet we txt everyday. I love her to pieces. I feel empowered, strong and ready to tackle dinner/supper/tomorrow. And I truly believe I have my girls to thank for that.
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I’ve had the best day!
Sacha came over last night and we challenged ourselves to vegetarian lasagna and had yummy yogurt and chocolate for supper whilst we watched Factory Girl (definitely recommend).
We woke up this morning to a quiet house and had a coffee and a cigarette to wake up. Sach did so well to adjust to a change (for her) at breakfast and reminded me how much of a trooper she is. Mum, Sacha and I then went to the Icehouse and went ice skating! Mum killed it- she zoomed around and appeared to do it with ease. Sacha and I, yeah, we weren’t so great. We clung for dear life to the wall and laughed more than we skated. It was so much fun. We then had lunch in the sun and explored Costco (l o l) and my god I’ve never been so overwhelmed in my LIFE. So much food.. everywhere.. so much.. my mind was in overdrive. Such a weird place.
Sacha and I then went and got frozen yogurt for afternoon tea which was a BIG challenge for me. It was the first time I had an afternoon tea out and it was unfamiliar which added to the anxiety. We went to Yo-Chi and I had half coconut, half salted butterscotch with strawberries, dried figs, crumble (eep!) and these little juice balls. It was ah-mazing! I’m going to get it tomorrow with my sister!
We saw our friend for coffee after which was lovely. I feel so grateful to have such amazing, supportive people in my life.
Hanging out with Sacha makes me so motivated to kick this illness where it hurts. She’s such a calming, positive presence in my life and I absolutely love her to bits (u roK sach).
I’ve had a great day and it was so normal and relaxed. I’m proud of Sacha and I for rolling with things and allowing ourselves to have a good time. Sigh, I feel good. I feel really damn good.
21!
I’ve had a wonderful birthday and it was so… normal. Sacha stayed over on Saturday night and we watched movies and ate yummy veggie burgers.
This morning we (mum, my sister, Sach and I) woke up early and went to a really cute cafe for breakfast. Before today, I couldn’t remember the last time I went out for breakfast and ordered something other than a bowl of fruit. How boring. I decided on the bircher muesli with stewed cinnamon apple, sultanas, pistachios, yogurt and puréed pumpkin. I struggled through the second half of it but seeing how my best friend was handling it really inspired me to push on.
We went to Camberwell Market after and i picked up a few bargains!
I challenged myself again at lunch and was so proud of Sacha (and myself i guess) for adjusting so easily and going with the flow. She’s a fucking warrior princess.
I saw my aunt in the afternoon for coffee and then dad came over for dinner. I had a slice of the ice cream cake mum bought me. Delish. This is the first birthday in nearly 7 years where purging/laxatives/restriction have NOT been involved and that is a reason to celebrate :’)
Love and light to you all!
I'm going out for coffee with my girls today. It'll be so good to do something ~normal and to be able to get out of the house. I'm really looking forward to it.
P.S. 12 days purge free! (I've never gone longer than 12)