❛ paul... if we get through this, i would love to just see a nice silent movie with you. but in case we don't... kiss me? ❜
this isn't how paul imagined their first kiss would be. and he has imagined it. the first time he imagined it, they were outside of beanie's after he stayed late while she closed the shop. eventually, he got a little more imaginative, and they sat on a bench at the park as they leaned in for their first kiss. but this? they're surrounded by twisted metal and debris from the helicopter's crash landing. the air smells like smoke and burning metal. emma's hurt. and while he miraculously walked away from the wreckage unscathed, he's felt better.
paul has every intention of making sure that emma gets out of here. he's not as confident, however, in his escape. he wants to reassure her that they will see each other again, but he can't. she'd call him out for lying anyway, more than likely. he stares down at emma. his heart races one million miles per minute, and his mind won't shut up. but he manages a small nod as he tells her, ❝ okay. ❞
with his go-ahead, emma leans in. as soon as he moves to do the same, she sputters and coughs up a bit of blood. he feels a few warm droplets speckle his face. under any other circumstance, paul would be horrified. he'd recoil. he'd wipe furiously at his face to get the blood off. while he does have to suppress the urge in order to avoid it, he stays where he is as she apologizes. he shakes his head.
❝ it's... ❞ anything he can think to say comes out horribly awkward in his head, but he wants to reassure her that it's okay. paul places his palm against her cheek and brushes most of the blood away from her lips with his thumb. some of it smears onto her chin and cheek, but he ignores it and quickly follows the motion up with a kiss.
his imagination, dull as it is, could never have conjured what kissing her would actually feel like. and while this is by far his most unconventional first kiss with someone, it's undeniably the best one. he prays, silently, with his lips pressed against hers, to whatever other strange forces might exist unbeknownst to him that it won't be their last.
@missretros sent: sender kisses receiver to say goodbye. — emma!