#mit talks

[miku-p]

say what you want about him but shadow the hedgehog has a nice design. that red eyeshadow, those curls, the shoes? iconic.

[k1dbuu]

honestly if you're judging the new Pokémon movie off of summaries alone just stop already lmao

[k1dbuu]

happy july 14th tumblr

[k1dbuu]

internet dependence

I’ve been thinking about this for a while now, how the internet has impacted my life, how i’ve grown a sort of dependence on it over the years, where it stands in life for me, things like that.

read more if you wanna read my rambles about my life

My brother has called me on the 7th to wish me a happy belated birthday, I barely see him and didn’t really know that he existed until i was like 7, so I think its safe to say that he doesnt have a very strong presence in my life. I forgot to call him back, his birthday was on the 10th. Its been bothering me for a bit, but I cant exactly call him up 18 days later like “hey sorry i didnt say happy birthday to you btw why werent you present during my childhood” or something lol. 

My father’s face lightens up so much when he speaks to him. It’s really nice to see, but I feel like wrong or improper for not sharing that feeling. He’s somebody I’m supposed to love and appreciate, but I don’t. It feels off and weird. 

I almost forgot that i wanted to talk about internet dependence and nearly stopped here lol. So about my internet dependence..

As a child I didnt really have people i could relate to, or anything like that. My brothers were absent for some time, and my sisters were both much older than me, so I turned to the internet at a young age (about 7 i think?). It was like my home, and it still feels like that to this day. I have made multiple friends from it that I still communicate with even now, but I often like to think whatb would my life be like if I had some actual role models or people to relate to and look up to as a child how different would I have turned out? Would I have been a happier person now? Would i be just as depressed? I don’t really know.

Thats really all for now because i dont have the energy to continue typing out my thoughts like this. If you are reading sorry for the random ass few paragraphs about my brother. Just felt like talking about that.

[k1dbuu]

just feel like talking again

hey all, whoever reads my vents and stuff. Just me again, feeling a certain mood and all and abusing this platform, using it as a way to dump my empty thoughts and making long posts are just what im in the mood for

probably not gonna be super long but i’ll put a cut here anyways

I’ve been pretty stressed lately. I blame the year ending and all, maybe its just fucking with my head or something.. Nah, probably not. Lately i’ve been having more and more dysmorphic about my body and shit but i guess thats just a price you get with losing a bunch of weight (lost like 40lb so far). its been getting terrible lately. almost had a breakdown a few sundays ago lmao. i’ll be fine though, i can handle this.. at least i think so. Besides my Eating Disorder Misadventures(tm), school is out for the break and christmas is right around the corner, so im a bit excited haha. I finally got to ordering that Rosa figure i wanted (it costed me a pretty penny but i didnt pay a single cent of it lmao) and i got the pokemon center mimikyu plushie so im pretty cool and happy right now. I also got into Animal crossing pocket camp (i run an animal crossing blog for pete’s sake, why didnt i get into this game sooner?!) and thats really cool. I think thats all i got to say for now. whoever reads these, i’’ll see you next time i guess

[k1dbuu]

who wanna buy me that ARTFX rosa figure

[k1dbuu]

just in one of those "you're a fucking angsty nut and nobody wants to talk with you because you're weird and boring and hate everything" mood

[k1dbuu]

I'm this close to getting back into naruto