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Its I wanna kill myself hours and I don't even know why

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You havent even left yet and I am so sad that you will be gone that I am fighting tooth and nail not to cry, and I thought you were the crybaby in this relationship

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You bring warmth to my heart and soul and don't even know it

I don't understand how you can't hate yourself souch even though your very existence saved me

I don't know who to communicate this all encompaceing feeling you you that make me write pages upon pages of prose and drives me to be stronger and braver than I ever could alone

I don't know how to explain to you that you are perfect in all your flaws not to society or any thing else but to me

Every chip crack and dent that you loath that makes you fell ulgy and unwanted are so very very dear to me and only drive me deeper in to loving you

Because you are strong, I know you can't see it but I can in every pain and inscury you hold in your heart, in every battle scar from you past and every breath you take

You are so radent I can bearly speak and if you could feel what I feel I you would be able to tell I'm also bursting with love for every little bit of you

But as it is all the "I love yous" and kisses in the world could get you to fully understand the depths of it

Your name is etched in my soul and I wish you could to know

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I'm just depressed as hell and I don't know how to fix it, like fuck how does one live like this?

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Ways to cope:

1. Talking to someone in order to heathly express my feelings

2. Actively doing things to make my body feel better

Me: hmmm I don't know :/

3. Scrolling down tumblr for fuxjin hours and avoiding all who try to talk to me

Me, pointing: I want that one