#mod caelan

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i have had ENOUGH, who is gonna take one for the team and date me in 2020?

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if tv has taught me anything it’s that bad things happen to me because i am sexy and narratively important

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gays have three (3) moods:

- kiss boy

- adopt dog

- wear pink tinted glasses

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i hope 2019 is the year you need it to be. whether that’s a new slate to start again, a stepping stone to something bigger, or just time to find happiness in the world around you.

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‘not everything has to be gay!!’ please take me to this world where everything is gay, i want to be there instead

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if i were a fruit i’d be a pomegranate because i’m a lot of work but i’m still a snack

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So... I think I'm in love with my best friend and sense I consider myself straight, idek what life is... so I try to avoid him. I know it's pretty much fine at a distance but just spending a few short hours around him, I feel the same thing you'd feel about a high school crush you were to afraid to tell you were crushing on. Also don't know why I told you all this... but what should I do?

Firstly not knowing your identity completely or only exploring it later in life isn’t unusual and don’t feel that you need to force a label on yourself. 

In the case of your best friend it can be a little more complicated but there a number of things you can do. Depending on how well you two get along telling him how you feel is always an option, it can make things awkward if he was to reject you but true friends can always bounce back. But best case scenario is you get to be with the guy you’re crushing on and worst case is you now get to move on from this person, it can be win win either way. If you go down this route I’d test the waters to see how he feels about you beforehand.

If you know he’s not interested or don’t feel ready to tell him then unfortunately moving on might be the only thing to do, it can be difficult if you feel so strongly for someone but may be best in the long run. And if you know things wouldn’t work out between you two romantically then you always have this friendship to fall back on.

This advice is based on my personal experience and I don’t know your exact scenario so it’s your choice what you feel fits the situation best, I’ve been in the scenario where I had a huge crush on a guy (kind of a ‘only gay in the village’ scenario) and I told him straight up how I felt and it was awkward at first but we got over it, we get on fine now and now I’m with someone so much better for me. My advice is not to rush anything you do, you have time to figure this out and decide what’s best for you. If you have someone you trust (another friend or family member etc) that you feel comfortable telling your situation to might be helpful to vent or put any plans in place but I’m always here with advice if you found any of this useful lmao

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this is the first year i’ve had a boyfriend for valentines, 2018 is truly a year for the gays