Can I get all the caleb hate off my dash by saying I want to fuck him?? Because I've just scrolled like 5 different posts of people saying they don't like him *checks notes* because they've charactised him wrong, refuse to read his myth and my favourite was the person who's convinced mc and him are blood siblings??
Hi! It's been a while but I was wondering why don't you write for Mystic Messenger anymore? I saw your post about Zens Birthday but other than that it's been quiet? :( I hope this doesn't come across mean because I love the caleb stuff but I really enjoyed the mystic stuff as well.
Hi! Don't worry I didn't take this as rude ♡ Sorry if my writing is off, I'm sick 🤢
For the short answer - I haven't stopped, I just haven't had much motivation for Mysme or many requests for it either T-T I wrote a saeran piece the other week and Zenny is getting something for his birthday (low-key forgot about Yoosung I'll make it up to him I swear 😭 we are just too similar, drop out vet students, so writing him is FUNKY)
I'll write something a bit more personal under the cut, feel free to skip it LOL I would, I hate writing my feelings out.
I'm glad your enjoying the Caleb stuff! More lads stuff is coming, as well as the other characters, so if you have a favourite Anon let me know 👀 maybe we can do a fun cross over or something; I take all and any requests I can.
For something a bit more personal, I joined the mysme Fandom in 2020 but wasn't really that active until I joined a reverse big bang for it - that's when I REALLY started to get into the fandom. I made friends, and had a whole ass community I spoke too daily!! It was great, after that I joined another mysme server and made another small group of friends and we broke away to do roleplay together, so from 2020-2022 everything was brilliant, I loved mystic messenger and all the characters brought me nothing but joy - I even travelled internationally to meet someone i met through the game (please please please don't do this if your not 300% sure they are who they say they are, I was a dumb kid that got lucky).
It was last year really that things started going to shit for me, the people I had literally grown into an adult around started to become distant and I lost some friends I thought I'd have for a life time. The fandom became very very toxic for me, and at times I struggled to even get the motivation to talk to the friends I made through the game because I knew they would mainly be talking about something that had brought me so much pain. I had legal fears over this game, I feared my full name being doxed by someone I once cared for, I had private messages sent to others and weaponised against me, I had to fight every day to keep the ones I loved safe and they were used against me too.
It was hard, it was awful but I battled through - I still had the small rp community as well as another small group I'd found. That was until I lost the rp community due to something I'm not ready to talk about - it wasn't pretty, I cried every day for a month and didn't really eat (I literally fainted and was rushed into hospital). The stress was killing me.
So, all of this coming from ONE fandom did make it leave a sour taste in my mouth. I was still writing for it, I still LOVED the game and the characters - I mean the Zena Mystictober was after all this had happened! And I'm still writing for it now, but, as mysme became toxic lads became a safe place. I lost my grandfather, a man who practically raised me, shortly before Calebs release, and the joy I felt messing around with him and getting his cards was one that kept me going - i remember me and my best friend playing through his cards together as we waited for the hurst to arrive.
I don't want you to feel like I'm attacking you Anon, but I am aware most of my followers followed me because of mystic messenger and I do feel you all deserve an explanation on why it's now in second place on my blog. Mysme isn't going anywhere, but, it's going to take a while for the game to not leave a sour taste in my mouth.
I'll always love Zen, Yoosung, Jaehee, Jumin, Saeyoung, Saeran, Jihyun, Rika and Vanderwood just as now I love Caleb, Xavier, Zayne, Rafayel and Sylus. That won't ever change, they got me through the pandemic. So I promise you, they aren't going anywhere. Not on this blog at least. 🩷🩷
