The end of the story
hello guys
i just found an email from the agency i went to an interview with 2 weeks ago in my spam folder. they chose not to move forward with me. that was my last shot, and im so sad. for the last four years i’ve told myself that i was going to be a successful model. i envisioned myself on all the major runways and doing multiple photoshoots for vogue, when in reality i don’t think i would have been happy working as a model. i don’t think i would have been able to handle being judged on the daily, having to be extremely patient, work in extreme conditions and so on. i’ve worked so hard over the last four years to fit into a role, i was never meant to fit into. so at the same time it is kind of a relief.
my biggest motivation for getting into modelling was to help make the world a better place. i always thought if i could become a public figure i would have a voice that would be heard. but how was i ever going to make the world a better place, when i as a model, would embody the perfect human, the perfect body and the perfect face. i would only ever contribute to one of the biggest negative sites of social media.
nevertheless i’m thankful for the journey modeling has brought me on. its been a part of making me who i am. modeling helped me figure out what i want to do with my life. i want to help people. and in my next gap year that is hopefully exactly what i’m going to do. and to anyone who might read this thank you for taking your time to read about my dreams.
This is my goodbye to modeling and this blog. Thank you for everything.
ps. never stop dreaming!
