#moms 2

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Someone wrote a fic involving Josée and her abusive mom and tagged it as my blacklisted phrase hallelujah

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As un-Fresh Canon as it is, I remember “mama” complaining about money quite a bit. Though it could have been just... her being greedy, but it might have been we actually were poor lmao

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This song felt so Josée until it mentions the mom being good. I mean, you could replace it with Jacques' mom but. Official Fresh canon Josée probably would never disown her mom ever.

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pinellama replied to your post: “pinellama replied to your post:rolls around in my tearsJOSEE WHY ...”:

okay but once you listen to all of them you should tell me which one is the feels-y-est... i have a morbid fascination with these things...

I’m kind of torn between Night Changes and Flashlight. Mostly because Night Changes mentions a mom thing and Flashlight just sounds... sadder with a happy note?

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juilusmonrey replied to your post:Why the fuck would you. Remind my dad of the 25th...

can i just like? maybe kill him? or something?

please do. he literally walked over to my dad and was like. “do you know what today is?” as if my dad is expected to remember the day his mom died when it’s obviously still a huge source of grief for him. and when my dad didn’t know, my uncle was like. “here remember mom.” and gave him some weed like. free weed but what the fuck

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like i t feels. so bad. to know that 2 of your phobias are caused/worsened by someone that was supposed to love you and treat you with delicate kindness. it feels horrible to not be able to be underwater or near deep, open water without being anxious because your mom thought holding you underwater despite you squirming and crying would make you swim better.

it sucks that i could have outgrown my arachnophobia, but she triggered it so much and threatened to leave me in a tub full of spiders and threatened to get fake spiders to scare me that then, i had trouble sleeping and being in the house with her and now my phobia is so bad i literally cry at the word “spider” sometimes.

it sucks that when i came out, she called me the d slur and insists on continuing doing it, even though i’ve asked her to stop, even though i’m not lesbian, etc. it sucks that she told me i’d look ugly with short hair that even now, i wish i wouldnt have cut my hair sometimes because i know i look ugly with it because i have a fat face.

it feels fucking terrible to know that some of your worse mental illness and traumatic experiences are because of someone that birthed you and was supposed to love you and not hurt you. 

and it’s even worse when you see headcanons of a character that you identify with so much and it feels like theyre mocking you because the headcanon is so similar to something that happened to you physically.

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if you headcanon josee’s mom as abusive, i love you. but please keep art and fics of it SO FAR away from me. i am a simple 18 year old with severe issues with maternal abuse and apparently everyone all agrees that josees mom is the cause of her claustrophobia.

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me: gets so worked up over “abusive mom” josee headcanons that i get sick and Spiral Into Depression

also me: actively talks about them and thinks about it for hours