I am feeling so stressed about money lately, my credit card balance is not pretty. I'm spending on upcoming travel (hotel reservations, flights) and buying myself too much food out. Part of me feels guilty that I'm not throwing this money at my student loans. Part of me is just frustrated I won't be able to reach ALL my goals this year. In the abstract I do believe in spending on experiences but I'm kind of worried about looking back and having nothing to 'show' for this, you know? This will probably lead to me stupidly overspending on souvenirs.
Complaining about this to my friends seems bitchy bc I'm on the high end of earnings for my friend group and in the end I'll probably be fine. Like here is one of my specific bougie money problems: I'm waiting for reimbursement from my HSA for my new Prada glasses frames and I think I'm going to have to pull from savings to pay off the credit card they're on. I'm glad my level of personal finance acumen has risen so that just being able to pay off the credit card at the end of the month doesn't satisfy me any more, but my overall level of anxiety has not decreased.
Maybe I need to stop reading the Mr Money Mustache forums and take the post it note that shows my student loan debt off my desk. If my payments were even $500 a month instead of $800 I would so appreciate that breathing room.