“Face it like a grown up.”
Flash Forward y’all
Soaking wet. Shaking. Crying. How did Lily Potter end up on Alastor Moody’s doorstep and why was she there? Lily wasn’t exactly sure what drove her to the older Auror’s apartment in the middle of the worst thunderstorm she’d seen in London in ages. Desperation? Possibly. Fear? Definitely. Three knocks was all it took before Alastor opened his door and though for a moment Lily did fear he was going to just shut the door on her, she knew him far too well to know that he wouldn’t do that. Alastor was all bark and only 85% bite. The other 15% he was compassionate and someone Lily really looked up to and luckily for her that 15% was strong enough tonight to let the mess of the girl into his home.
“Do you want me to call James?” the question was a fair one but it instantly caused Lily to prickle, her heart racing as she shook her head “Please don’t.” her voice sounded frantic as she clutched the towel he had given her tighter around her shoulders. “That’s why I’m here actually”. Lily didn’t really have anyone to give her fatherly advice these days. After years of barely speaking her own father had passed away a few months ago leaving the young girl with a hole of sorts in her heart. There was so much hurt and though she hadn’t had a father figure in years the deafening fact that she never would have one again had begun to tear at her. If she could do anything to let her have one more conversation with her father today would be the day she would. But she couldn’t so instead she sought the solace of the closest thing she could think of in the form of Alastor Moody.
Her history with Moody wasn’t the strongest. They had met when she was 17 through Albus Dumbledore and over the last few years she had gotten to know him better. To this day she still wondered if he actually liked her or not but something in her gut told her that the grumpy attitude was just his thing and that deep down she had grown on him a little bit. He certainly had grown on her enough so that she was here in his kitchen about to tell him the most singularly important thing she’d ever told anyone.
It started with a sore back. Her lower back felt tight and no matter how much she stretched the tightness refused to go away. A few days later Lily was standing in the kitchen and the next thing she knew she had woken up on the floor, the light headed queasy feeling was what really scared her. Piercing headaches began to plague her to the point sometimes black was the only thing she could see. Honestly Lily thought she might have a brain tumor, it had crossed her mind enough that today she had made her way to St. Mungos. James had no clue about any of these besides witnessing her throwing up a few times, and Lily wanted to keep him in the dark. She didn’t need him to worry, she wanted to keep him sane as long as possible because if it was a tumor she was going to need her husband as much as ever. Alas it had not been a tumor. Lily was not dying. Instead she was very much alive.
“I’m pregnant” the words fell off her tongue as the first time she had spoken them aloud. Turning her eyes to look up at Moody, her gaze was wild and held the shock she still felt. Lily thought she was dying when really she was bringing new life. “I had a blood test today. I thought I was sick but instead...” she trailed off as the words got lodged in her throat, “I’m so scared, Moody. We’re at war. How can I have a baby right now?” she asked. That was it Lily was hysterical once more doubled over with her face in her hands as she cried. “It’s all my fault. I’m supposed to be responsible. My baby is going to be born into a world that wants it dead” sob after sob racked her thin frame until she was left hiccuping and out of breath.
“Face it like a grown up.”
The words were striking enough to hush Lily’s cries. “I’m barely a grown up. How can I face this?” she asked, shaking her head as she rubbed at her green eyes, “There’s nothing you can do to change this. So face it like a grown up” Moody repeated as he stood above her arms crossed over his chest, “You’re pregnant. You need to deal with it. Crying isn’t going to change this”. Moody was right about that one, her crying hysterically wasn’t doing anything but probably upsetting the baby. Wiping her eyes with the towel Lily nodded, “I’m so scared. I don’t know how to tell James. He’s going to be so upset” Lily told him, feeling the tears threaten to fall once more. “You have to tell him, Lily you can’t hide a baby from him. So go home and tell him” it seemed easy coming out of Moody’s mouth. Too easy. But maybe he had a point.
Standing up Lily hugged Moody in spite of the fact she knew he didn’t want her touching him. “I needed to hear that” she told him, holding onto the stone man for a beat more before pulling away and neatly folding up his towel. “Thank you” she gave him a small smile, “Please keep this to yourself, by the way. I promise I’ll tell Dumbledore soon, but first I probably should tell my husband” the last part caused her to smile a little though she really didn’t know why she was smiling. “I’m going to be a mum, can you imagine that?” it was a rhetorical question and shaking her head Lily stepped out of the kitchen towards his front door. “A Potter baby. You officially have 29 weeks to plan your escape because if James and I bug you this much only imagine what the baby’s going to be like?”











