Jun 17, 2024
Hmm, I need something to look forward to/plan for. I don't have any upcoming home improvement projects, trips, tattoos, piercings, or other events. I tried working on a five year plan but the only things I really want are 1) a fully remote job and 2) to find a life partner, both of which I guess I can work towards, but obviously can't control. And even if/when I achieve those goals... then what?
I love my house and don't want to move. I can't really afford to travel right now. So...?
#I just want some company#someone to build a life with#and even then I don't want to do much different#more local exploring#museums and antique stores#new restaurants and movies#nothing wild#definitely no kids#Hmmmm just feeling weirdly adrift lately#I'm not nearly as invested in my career anymore#it's fine it's easier than most things#and interesting sometimes#but I don't *feel* anything for it anymore#Maybe this is just more depression?#I upped my meds a week or two ago tho#I do start a 5 week long pottery class tomorrow#I'm hoping that sparks some joy#Personal rambling