journal entry 7/15/19

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journal entry 7/15/19
hampton court
river cam, cambridge
i turned 20 the other day so here’s to leaving the teens!!!!!!!!
back 2 school
yall,,,,i’ve started writing again and it’s all coming back to me jesus christ i feel like i could take over the world with this shittttt!!!!!!!!!!
IN MY DREAMS: fingers coast lazily over my hips, lips press against my cheeks, a smile given to me like a secret, lingering looks yearning for more, yet I cannot see their face, a blur I know is the face of unwavering love, and I bargain with angels and demons for more and more time with my love, my love, my love.
IN MY NIGHTMARES: champagne flukes shatter in my grip, glass dots the marble floor like constellations, wild eyes search mine for tranquility, tears dry against sharp cheekbones, slamming doors and curses form a dissonant symphony, blood spills from my fingers, knowing this is the end of whatever garden of Eden we stumbled upon, and I curse the angels and demons that laugh from above and below.
IN MY REALITIES: the empty space of my bed widens as time passes, my hand curls around the invisible hand I dream of, I wake to an ache in my chest without knowing what I am yearning for, my eyes look away at tender touches and kisses, the sun sets and rises without caring for my fears, and I dream and curse the angels and demons that gifted and cursed me with a heart made of gold and eyes spilling with hope.
can’t wait to transcend to another dimension and become a star goddess tonight at the florence + the machine concert