Jan 23, 2025
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The muses spoke to me
Like my soul
When u know its summer soda is the best for the spirit so grab one and have a good day
Bad Idea of the Day
Earlier I was at Dollar Tree and they had mountain dew. My natural reaction was HOLY CRAP! MOUNTAIN DEW FOR A DOLLAR! So I bought one.
Later when I got home, I went to drink it, only to discover that it was open.
I hadn't opened it.
Ew.
Defeated (By Caffeine)
Whenever I attempt to cut myself off caffeine my body reacts violently, first I crash followed by epic nausea, dizziness and neurological pain that rivals the worst migraine. My personal crusade of kicking the Caffeine habit faltered before it even really began.
The effects of the caffeine aren't even what bothers me, it kills me when I am dependent on something that isn't essential, or natural, It bothers me that I have an addiction that I cannot control. I can turn off pain, endure physical and emotional injury... but I can't even quit drinking soda for a few days without a nervous breakdown. Each attempt makes me feel more and more pathetic.
With the sheer amount of other stuff going on in my life I simply can't afford to waste time and attention on something that is essentially ego. It leaves me feeling defeated and more then a little humbled. I've had success in cutting down but the second I have a stressful day or a role playing night it's back to the bottle for me. (Especially when I'm the DM)
The caffeine withdrawals did induce a deep-sleep which left me some very interesting dreams though, I guess that is consolation for now.