19 & 23 =)
What am I excited about for next year? Leveling up. I’m taking my comprehensive exams in Jan/early Feb and applying for a fellowship that will take me to Greece for the 2019-2020 school year. I’m REALLY nervous about all of this, bc it is not an easy process and there’s no guarantee I’ll get the fellowship but it is also what’s tacitly and not-so-tacitly expected of me. The first few months of 2019 are going to be really stressful, but I’m hoping that by the end of them I’ll be ABD and in a place where I can take at least a month off, because I really need the time to recuperate, and I’m trying to set my year up to allow for more down time than I’ve afforded to myself maybe ever.
If I could send a message to myself back on the first day of the year, what would it be? I think just that I did fucking did it. My MA was a serious Sword of Damocles and I’m so proud of myself for finishing it. But also, January me hoped that because it was a new year, the persisting struggles I was facing as a result of my accident would be lessened, which was very aspirational and totally unrealistic. 2018 wasn’t as horrible as 2017, but it wasn’t easy, and that’s just how things fall.
end of the year asks
