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millie’s long list of malex fics | bitch i’m a monster by see_addy_write / @seeaddywrite​

“Fuck,” he mutters passionately, giving himself approximately thirty seconds to acknowledge how miserable he is before forcing his tactical mind and survival training to take over -- but he doesn’t have the chance. A short, wry chuckle from behind him makes Alex jump, and he twists around abruptly to find the source, his body habitually trying to find a defensive stance, even from his seated position in the dirt.

“Yeah. Fuck pretty much sums it up,” Michael Guerin drawls, his achingly familiar features drawn into a pinched scowl as he surveys their surroundings, and Alex’s heart sinks. Stranded alone in the desert is bad enough, but Michael’s presence makes it worse, despite the traitorous feeling of security and pleasure that sparks in Alex’s chest when he sees him.

For three years, Alex Manes has remained isolated, trying to keep the people he cares about safe from the monster inside of him. After being changed in the middle of a warzone, he's got more questions than answers about his condition ... but none of that matters when he wakes up stranded in the middle of the New Mexican desert with Michael Guerin, starving.

comment: i’d completely forgotten about vampire aus until addy’s story popped up, and thank god it did. the angst and turmoil is palpable from alex’s viewpoint, not only about his life (unlife?) as a vampire, but about being stuck out in the desert with no food source for miles except for michael. addy’s lays out the situation, the potential angst and consequences, with lovely, detailed prose and paragraphs that you can honestly just get lost in.

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millie’s long list of malex fics | stars, hide your fires by see_addy_write

There’s a moment of tense silence as Alex levers himself out of the computer chair and takes a few steps, working the stiffness from sitting too long out of his bad leg. “We’re not running,” he repeats, and this time, his voice is full of purpose. “I have an idea. It’s -- awful, but it’s the only way we’re going to be able to live out our lives without constantly looking over our shoulders.” Alex straightens his spine and stands at his full height, regarding Kyle solemnly and making it as clear as he can that he’s not going to hear any arguments.

“I’m going to infiltrate Project Shepherd, and we’re going to bring them down.”

Alex decides to take down Project Shepherd from the inside. Post-season one, canon compliant.

comment: if you’re not subscribed to this fic, get over there noooooow. this started as a response to a fic prompt here on tumblr, as so many other wonderful fics have, and it’s got me hooooked. it’s not just the angst and heartbreak of alex having to “align” with his family’s values in an attempt to get control of the Project Shepherd fiasco and keep his real family safe; addy’s writing is addictive and i find myself speeding through the paragraphs to soak up all the goodness, only to have to go back and read through everything slowly so that i don’t miss out on the lovely details.

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millie’s long list of malex fics | my soul is tired (and calls out for yours) by see_addy_write

But going back hasn’t been an option since Alex was seventeen, when he fell in love with Guerin the first time. That kiss at the museum had ascertained that Alex would never be able to let go of his feelings for Michael for any reason, no matter how noble it was — and the truth of the matter is that Alex wants to let Michael into the less romantic parts of his life. Because he knows that opening himself up and offering Michael the most vulnerable parts of himself is the only way to keep him, to prove that Michael trust him in return, after far too many mistakes and heartbreaks. Laying himself bare is the only way they’re ever going to move past this awkward phase somewhere between cosmic love and tentative friendship, and though Alex has never been so frightened in his life, he takes the first step by unlocking the door.

Alex works too hard and eventually Michael has to come to the bunker and make him go home. Post 1x12; written before the finale.

comment: sometimes you come across a fic that is like chicken soup for the soul; it soothes you in ways that you didn’t know you needed. this fic is so soft and slow and lovely; alex works himself to the point of unhealthy and kyle calls in the big guns to break the cycle. what ensues is basically 6k of the boys taking care of each other in a way that i think we really needed after cauldfield but will obviously never get. i’m grateful to get that catharsis through fics like this, which i keep tucked away for when i get sad about the boys again.

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millie’s long list of malex fics | let me down slowly (i'll be okay) by see_addy_write

He lingers there for a few moments, letting the complicated melody carry him back in time, to a cramped tool shed and the beautiful, guarded boy that Alex wanted to kiss more than he’d ever wanted anything else. They’d both been so different, then. While young Michael had been far from open, those prickly, defensive barriers hadn’t grown so tall Alex couldn’t climb them, and the omnipresent warmth in his eyes when he looked at Alex hadn’t yet become clouded with hurt and grief. It had been so easy between them, then. Just two boys, figuring out how to love for the first time and finding refuge in one another.

Until his father had ruined it, ruined everything.

Post S1 Finale. Michael & Alex in the aftermath, & how time heals all wounds.

comment: just a pair of boys, hanging out in the cave where max is chilling in his pod, talking about their issues and figuring stuff out. sometimes that’s all you need for a really lovely, heartwarming fic.

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millie’s long list of malex fics | oh telephone line, give me some time by see_addy_write

The first time Michael hears from Alex after he enlists, he nearly ignores the call. It’s been over a year since the incident in the shed; his hand is healed, and his heart has developed enough callous that he can pretend it has, too. Answering that call isn’t going to feed into that fantasy, because as soon as he hears Alex’s voice, Michael knows every defense he’s put up to contain that heartache is going to crumble. The smart thing to do would be to hit ‘ignore,’ and block the number – but while Michael may have a genius IQ, he’s never been known for doing the smart thing. The desire to hear Alex’s voice, to know he’s safe, overpowers every shred of common sense Michael possesses, and after the fourth ring, right before the call would be diverted to voicemail, he answers.

Three times that Michael and Alex can’t connect unless there’s a phone line between them, and one time they can.

comment: i’m weak for those x times thing happened + 1 time it went different and this one’s so sweet, so angsty, so in character! the idea of the boys having scattered phone interactions during that 10 years is so damn heartbreaking but that’s okay, because the author brings it round to a happy ending (:

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