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[norithebosmer]

my self-destructive behavior part 2:

I was painting a birthday gift for someone i think im close with, but havent talked to in a bit, when i saw them get reminded of someone just from a photo, and got really sad. Does anybody get reminded of me when they see photos or posts or tweets? If they do, is it bad that i want them to tag me, or just dm me, so much? And ofc i blame not having any interaction on myself again.

[norithebosmer]

Im in too much pain to move. I wondered why nobody checked on me, but isnt that because i keep telling everone 'dont worry im fine'?

[norithebosmer]

sorry, its hard to be happy when you make me feel unworthy of even meaningless things

sometimes people need those meaningless things. just so their exsistence is acknowledged

[norithebosmer]

My self-destructive behavior part 8: I know going for a walk in the forest will calm me down, but it’s been over 3 months already and i still didn’t go. I had the time. I just didn’t go.

[norithebosmer]

My self-destructive behavior part 6: talking to people makes me even more lonely. also i installed insta again, but idk what to do with it. i want to block all irl people cause im scared they might comment my name

[norithebosmer]

My self-destructive behaviour part 5:

l'm procrastinating doing things i like, even when i have time. My interests havent changed at all, I just think about having fun instead of having it.

[norithebosmer]

my self-destructive behavior part 4:

I like talking with this someone, but if i always have to be the one to start the coversation, then they just dont want to talk to me. So i stop texting first and the loneliness just grows

[norithebosmer]

my self-destructive behavior part 3:

Its 3:33am, i've been in bed for hours and still cant sleep. Might as well just get up.