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Ms. Sweets aka My Distant Lover

I've spent a lot of time trying to get my thoughts together about this particular post. Honestly, I'm on an emotionally confusing yet refreshing high right now, a lot of mixed feelings scattered accross my mind. I finally spoke to Ms. Sweets last night on the phone, we spoke about what she wanted to "get off her chest". Even though we had made plans over the weekend to meet up and talk about it all, our "date" kind of fell through. Anyway, out with it, Ms. Sweets is now involved with someone, has been since October and come to find out I know the guy. The selfish greedy nigga in me finds this as sort of a bummer, but the growing man inside is happy for her. In spite of this news I'm actually quite flattered for several reasons. First of all, she was willing to make a trip approximately 1/3's distance accross the state just to see and gage the reaction on my face when she told me. Very sweet of her in my opinion and I think that says a lot, for her it was about respect, she said she felt as though she owed me a face to face meeting. I can definitely appreciate and respect that. As she explained how it happened and who it was she was now dating I was smiling. Even though she couldn't see my face she could hear my smile through the phone as I wished her new relationship the best. I can see her smiling in my head as I explained (which really, I didn't even have to) that jealousy or bitterness was the farthest thing from a possible reaction to her news. Her happiness is satisfaction for me, besides that our relationship as friends has always been based on more than just sex. She values our friendship and doesn't want me out of her life for a reason. So much so that she told her man that she would cut off any and every other dude BUT me. If I understand things correctly, she explains that dude went through her phone and saw a conversation between her and myself. Though our conversation wasn't sexually charged or romantic at all I guess he still felt some type of way because he did know who I was. He immediately began to put the battery to her back about it but apparently she shut it down because he hasn't brought it up again. That was a bad move on his part, a surprising move as well, if you've known her for about as long as I have you should know better. Ms. Sweets is a free spirit but a very good girl if she needs to be, she couldv'e been txting me back some real slick shit if she wanted to this whole time. Though I left her plenty of open opportunites to do so she never took the bait. I've been wondering why too, lol, for weeks she's been so mysterious to me, I coulnd't read her like I usually can with women. Instead she gave me nothing, one word responses at times, drove me up the fuking wall but now I see why she was on it like that. She's "take er' home to mama" material and has been to me for a while now. I'm not sure when it happened exactly, perhaps within the last nine months or so, but at some point she became "more" to me. In any event, I have enough confidence (which by the way, she said I have every right to be confident about myself ;-D) in myself to know that if dude wasn't in the picture she and I would be much closer right now. At this point I can only speculate on what she thinks about everything and how she really feels. However, I think we are closer now than we have ever been, so I don't plan on doing anything that would prove my reputation as a home wrecker true. Yes among other things l've been called by females (such as 'asshole', 'jerk', 'dick head' etc...) a "home wrecker" deserves honerable mention. After all, one reason dude was upset about seeing my name in Ms. Sweets' phone is because he knows who I am. He knows that there was a time when I was hittin' that, if my memory is right at that time he wanted a shot at her as well but I guess you can say I had already obtained the spot light. However, if insecurity is what prompted him to go through her phone it's a wrap for him sooner than later. She's to fine to be in a relationship with and not have full trust for her, worrying what the next nigga is doing to keep her attention will only prove counter productive. Niggas will always be plottin' on her, his best bet is to focus on whatever he did to bag her in the first place. Knowing Ms. Sweets I know it was no simple accomplishment, I'm more than positive he worked pretty hard for it. Overall, I can't prove that dude is insecure, but that's what it sounds like to me, I mean why else go through her phone right? You never know what the future holds so for now I will simply play my position and let what will be, be. I won't take back a single thing I said in "Ms. Sweets aka My Pretty Eyed Unicorn", that's how I feel and she knows I'm not going any where, she will always be MY Unicorn and she knows that as well. If your lost in the sauce check previous post to catch up with the story, the followig posts only get more interesting. Get at me on Twitter.com @HowItAllStarts, special shout outs to @skyaRose, @SexxiSorria, @carmelhomie and @IamSEXtrodinary. Follow this blog, ask me anything, until next time...

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