@muchandmore correct! here’s the lines-
No, she shouted, or perhaps she only thought it, for no whisper of sound escaped her lips. She was being carried. Her eyes opened to gaze up at a flat dead sky, black and bleak and starless. Please, no. The sound of Mirri Maz Duur's voice grew louder, until it filled the world. The shapes! she screamed. The dancers! Ser Jorah carried her inside the tent.
Darkness, Dany thought. The terrible darkness sweeping up behind to devour her. If she looked back she was lost. "My son was alive and strong when Ser Jorah carried me into this tent," she said. "I could feel him kicking, fighting to be born." "That may be as it may be," answered Mirri Maz Duur, "yet the creature that came forth from your womb was as I said. Death was in that tent, Khaleesi."
Ser Jorah had killed her son, Dany knew. He had done what he did for love and loyalty, yet he had carried her into a place no living man should go and fed her baby to the darkness. He knew it too; the grey face, the hollow eyes, the limp. "The shadows have touched you too, Ser Jorah," she told him. The knight made no reply. Dany turned to the godswife. "You warned me that only death could pay for life. I thought you meant the horse." "No," Mirri Maz Duur said. "That was a lie you told yourself. You knew the price."
it’s similar to sansa initially taking her anger about lady out on micah & arya, or catelyn taking her anger at ned out on jon. how can dany stay mad at jorah, at her protector, a fellow westerosi? who will protect her if not her old bear? who will love her if not her knight? but she’s upset, she’s physically drained, she’s emotionally traumatized, she’s lost everything, how can she blame herself or jorah for what happened? so she chooses mirri to bear the brunt of her anger because mirri is a slave, because mirri is a lamb woman, because mirri is an acceptable target.
and then she never re-evaluates what she does to mirri, even after she sends jorah away. not when the noble ghiscari boy comes to her looking for justice. not when xaro points out that slavery still exists in all but name within the walls of meereen. if she looks back, she is lost. so she never looks back, never learns.
