sitting in the break room feeling nothing. in a kinda peaceful way. scratching floors is def not a good job it pays fuckshit but its not that bad? dying over a sink cleaning veggies was way worse. if i find nothing else this seems fine enough at least while i share my life with relatives. like living in their house n contributing to the family budget. i will def die if i have to live without their help but maybe i will manage to find a better paying job by the time. idk if i'll be saying this a week later tho, maybe i will get very physically tired after a couple days of work in a row. hope this won't happen. people in this particular place also seem nice, hope i will work in here and/or in shops with similar people.
in the other news i bought sigs and went to smoke on my break. so now obviously people know i smoke. and my mom knows like a lot of people in different shops of this chain. probably people in this place too. god i hope so much they won't tell. like yea im an adult i technically can even get completely wasted or go whore my ass until it was off if i'd wanted to, esp since i buy stuff on my money not hers but hell. i dont wanna be yelled at and idk whether she will yell or not. or get me grounded or something. she smoked all my life not hiding it from me tho i dont think what she expects to get from this lol. maybe she'll be like "o em. fine ig. do what you want idc". maybe not. we'll see. hopefully i don't get fucking quartered with horses or something lol
also wear you gloves while cleaning yea. cleaning stuff ate through several pairs or gloves until i put on two at the same time and now i have a couple cuts on my hand. be safe my dears