A Love Letter to Jon McGlocklin
To: Jon McGlocklin <Jonnymac1454@xxxxx> From: Beth Hoppe <mulchbabe@xxxxx> Subject: (no subject) Date: Nov 23, 2013 10:28 pm
i know i’ve told you, but i love being with you, i love talking to you, i love having fun and being goofy with you, i love laughing with you, i love being close to you, i love sharing “stuff’ with you and yes, i have grown to love you...
and strangely, its partly because of that love that i know we have to do what we have to do. it breaks my heart to see you struggle with the heavy burden of guilt and that alone should be enough make me move on. if i didn’t care so deeply for you and your feelings, i would probably keep pushing in a different direction and that would be all wrong...
its sooooo much easier and much more fun to keep focusing on the fun parts of it all, cuz this is is so fucking fun, but we both have known it cant really go anywhere, nor would we want to make those drastic changes. you have an amazing family and life and jeopardizing that is crazy and something i have never wanted or would ever ask of you...
you rank right up there in the top very few special relationships in my life, as crazy and as fast as that all happened, i still wouldn’t change any of it !! you are an amazing person and everything and more than i could have imagined before really getting to know you. i guess my “pre-coke” speculation was right that we might hit it off well- i honestly really didn’t have a clue HOW well tho!!...
i know we are not walking away from each other, but we are walking away from the relationship level that we have grown to know and love...
you may be jonnymac to the world, but you are so much more special to me. the hours we have spent together are very precious and special. and when i watch people watch you, i love knowing that only i have a special and unique chapter in your book too!!...