#musingg

[leblancoracle]

“You know, if Ryuji really wanted to slap some butts, maybe he should get one of those novelty mouse pads.”

[jasteria]

I really wanna sleep outside somewhere but it's not safe

[jasteria]

I wanna be rich and buy a brownstone in New York so I can be among other lonely people. At least there are no expectations. Everyone is struggling. No one is pretending to live. There's so much hope, so many broken dreams. Everyone is living in their own head. Just like me.

[jasteria]

Negativity ahead

I feel so incredibly isolated, unwanted, and alone.

I only have two days to get better. I don't know if I can save face around people on Monday.

I'm in a strange space right now. It's like I'm not really here. I have a strong urge to leave, to move and leave everything behind.

I've done that twice before.

Did it help? Who knows.

I need to disconnect. But I like being in this space.

There are so many people on this site, it's like I'm a grain of sand.

Being here feels like screaming in a soundproof room. Is it really satisfying? Is it gratifying to yell without hearing your echo? Is it okay to have no impact? Is it ok to be meaningless?

Who knows.