#musingsofthatgracelady

[thatgracelady]

When someone asks me where I finally laid us to rest, I'll tell them, on the corner of 10th & 23rd.

[thatgracelady]

I love you I miss you Tell me I can come home to your open arms

[thatgracelady]

I do it just for old times sake while you lay there and pretend you're not awake you're breathing quietly, eyes are closed as I wander round on tippy toes your chest moves up and down, fast asleep these memories are ones I struggle to keep you twitch and you squirm as I try to remember the curves of your bones I once a learned you snore peacefully, your chest rises slow and sinks deep again, your lungs moving below the skin stretched thin across your long frame as I try to accept that we will never be the same

[thatgracelady]

"The distance is further and you're becoming a memory, something that happened long ago. And when I find photos I've hidden of you I ask myself who are these people in these photos and when did they stop being so happy together? What was, no longer is. And I just don't feel anything any more."

[thatgracelady]

you're worth these sleepless nights my lack of fuel tired, tearful eyes emotive heart we will get to the end of this, and darkness will no longer hold you and I will love you until the light reaches your bones again and hold you till you know you were worth it all

[thatgracelady]

"I am in love with another."

[thatgracelady]

and just like that I wondered why I had ever loved you at all

[thatgracelady]

but then I slowly began to be okay with the way your words raked over me like nails on a blackboard.