Can I just share how I failed a subject because of my anxiety? Or maybe my laziness, I don't know what fits.
I'm trying to remove the toxic mindset of a student which is the idea that "Grades are ALL that I am." It was good, my grades are getting better except for one subject (if you follow my blog u know which one).
Something about either the subject matter or the instructor or maybe even the schedule puts me off in taking that class. Every time I see my instructor I get the feeling that she's judging me. I know she hates me or my habit of being late/absent in her class but the fact that she looks at me at a certain way added to my nervousness that I usually end up avoiding it altogether. I missed three meetings out of 12-ish meetings, and it's not good (since we can only miss three. yikes)
I know I should've dealt with this better but I can't seem to get past my fear of my instructor. I don't know how will I fix this (or if I can even fix this) but i'm really torn right now. I don't know if my bad grade is because of my performance on the specific subject, or the mindset of not treating my grades as important as before.
Some words of encouragement or advice would really be a great help. :(