So a lot has been going on I've wanted to share, but I've been pretty damn depressed. I haven't really been proud of much lately. The few things I have been haven't really been received the way I thought they would be. 🖤 🖤 🖤 All these dudes, and chicks, tell me I'm gorgeous or hot, because of my nudes, but in real life, I don't have anyone calling me sexy or beautiful. In real life I'm so unbelievably self conscious,because I'm certainly not skinny, and I absolutely hate my stupid face. Yea, I might have a nice butt, which is great to hear, but it'd be cool to be called beautiful, or sexy in real life once in awhile. 🖤 🖤 🖤 My jaw is all fucked up. I'm asymmetric now (meaning both sides of my face no longer match) because my jaw got broken, and I fucking hate how I look. My lips/ mouth is all crooked, and I can't smile right. I never smile with my mouth open, and teeth showing. 🖤 🖤 🖤 Last night I decided that today I'd share my 2 recent proud moments. 🖤 First- I received the MVP patch at my 8 ball playoffs over the weekend. I was super stoked. It's my first, and I hope not last time I get it. I played very well against the 7 I had to play. Im a 2, huge difference. They're way better. I held my own, and even got a point! 🖤 Second- I started my phototherapy class last night. It was so much fun, and I found out with 3 more classes, I can get a certification in phototherapy!!! I'm so doing it! I've wanted this for as long as I have known about phototherapy! Also, I was used as an example for class after an exercise we did. 🖤 So I forced myself to smile with teeth for the photo, and shared the MVP award with the class. #8ball #playoffs #winning #mvp #mvpawards #pool #poolplayer #back2school #backtoschool #phototherapy #arttherapy #gradschool #collegeofnewrochelle #postgrad #masterslevel #mastersdegree https://www.instagram.com/p/BtEQzeiAVo-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ac29sa687xvl
