I was snoozing in bed when light began to hit my eyes. I felt lips on mine which made me believe that Matt was waking me up.
i groan and i try to at the most cuddle him so he'd get back in the bed with me but he already caught on to what I was doing
"c'mon baby. i know you're awake" he says
"i am but Matt i'm tired. I just wanna sleep for a few more hours" i plead softly while comforting myself back into the bed
"i wanted you to come shopping with me though"
i opened my eyes and see him smiling and buckling his belt. i break and get up to go to the bathroom. I do what's needed and i exit to go find my clothes.
Matt comes behind me holding my waist kissing my neck. i chuckle and continue to look for my clothes
"can you get my phone please?" i ask him so he'll move
"in a second" he continues to kiss me and feel upward on my body
i turn myself towards him and kiss him.
"my phone please sweetheart" i ask
he moved to grab my phone and handed it to me while i got dressed and he went to roll a blunt
"you look so beautiful sweetheart" he says
"thank you my love"
i take my hair down and i go to find my shoes for my fit. i decided to do a little black and grey fit with a grey bow. i wore my crocs and grabbed my purse.
"do you wanna take anything with you? if so give it to me so i can put it in my purse" i grab my ipad and my chargers
he hands me the blunt and takes my purse to put his stuff in it. he came back to me to sit beside me. i hand the blunt back to him
"smoke it ma. just let me kiss you" i decided to put it out and get up before he could start
"okay baby let's go before you get horny"
"too late"
he walks behind me closing and locking the door. he unlocks the car door and we get in.
i buckle my seatbelt and pull my ipad out to draw. matt starts the car up and we head out to the mall. after he picks his music he rests his free hand on my thigh. somehow i believe that helps him drive smoother.
as he hummed along to his music i went in between apps . i eventually turn his music down to talk to him
"are we buying anything specific or are we just shopping?"
"well i need a few things but if you want to baby you can just shop"
"oh no i'm okay my love"
we arrived at the mall and of course he took his ass in the jewelry store. i stood beside him looking at all the cute bracelets and stuff
"which one you want?" he asks
"i'm just looking baby"
"hey how much are the bracelets? i'm just getting one of each"
"in total it's around $437 plus the other stuff you're buying."
"okay."
he swiped his card with no issue and grabbed his bags with a big smile on his face
"i told you i was just looking!!"
and that's basically how the entire shopping trip went. he shopped for himself and kept buying stuff that i liked. i begged for him to put some stuff back but he just kept swiping his card. we didn't leave the mall until around 7:30 both of our hands full of bags which are mostly mine
we packed the car and then got in
"i can't wait for you to model all the stuff we got" he started the car up
tears filled my eyes but a smile plastered on my face
"oh baby i'm sorry i just wanted to spoil you and you never let me" he quickly kisses me in hopes of me to stop crying
"can i pay for dinner? please" my voice withered from
me crying
"as long as you use my card" he chuckled
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an: this is old & i'm cleaning my drafts out 😛. this was also based on something i saw like a year ago (i think) LMAO
AN: i quite literally based this off something i seen on here from one of the people i follow. i can’t remember who either cause i wrote this a long time ago 😭. if its bad then let me knowwww! again i did write this a long while ago but i hope you enjoy🫶🏾
A few nights ago you found out chris was cheating on you.. that same night you stayed in the studio hurting and crying wondering why he did what he did or why he didn't just break up with you if he wasn't happy.
so many questions ran through your head yet none could be answered. he kept texting you as if everything was normal which told you he knew nothing of what you know.
the longer the days went on of pretending to be okay and letting that knowledge sink the bigger the pain got and it didn't help that you weren't confronting him about it either. you carried conversations with him like everything was cool. like now..
"when are you coming home? i miss my baby" chris whines
"i'm not sure yet."
it pissed you off when he called you baby as if he didn't just lay with someone else some nights ago
he began to yap about something but you couldn't take it anymore
"chris i'll call you tomorrow. gotta get ready for my next show."
"okay i lo-" you hung up
YOUR POV
i remembered a beat my producer sampled from Justin Timberlakes' "Cry Me a River" and that's when the lyrics just flew right out.
i was performing in LA in two days and i wanted this song to be finished by then. Previewing what i had and how i wanted it to sound kept me up almost all night. i slept in the studio and almost missed my show.
i couldn't let chris keep me up like this. i wanted revenge
my team kept asking trying to figure out why i was crying and locking myself in the studio all night and i'm eventually gonna tell them but it'll be on my time.
As if my night couldn't get any worse the show was canceled due to weather issues.. it hurt me more to let my fans down and unfortunately i had no one to complain about this to but Chris.. so i called him
he didn't answer so i checked his location and not to my surprise he's not home so i called his brothers
"Guys have you talked to Chris?"
"He said he was going to Aya's house. Hasn't been home since"
As in my BESTFRIEND AYA?
As i recheck his location i ask Nick how long he's been gone.
"since yesterday actually.. he's been going over there since you left but i don't see why he wouldn't answer his phone. Matt call him really quick"
"yo?"
i go on mute and Nick can see in my face that i'm about to cry
"your girlfriend just called and asked about you"
"oh shit. what'd she say?"
you can hear rustling from matt's phone
"the fuck are you doing?"
"just tell me what she fuckin said so i can call her back"
"why didn't you answer her call in the first place?"
"cause i was at Aya's place. i didn't want her to think anything"
"so you could've answered your phone and let her know that"
silence
"chris are you fuckin with Aya?" Nick asks
"i'll see y'all when i get home"
the phone disconnects and i come off mute.
"Moni?"
"i'm gonna be there tomorrow. i'll uh.. see you guys-"
"go on mute go on mute" nick whispers
i do that and Chris comes in the door
"so?"
"haven't called her yet"
"no dumbass are you fuckin Aya?"
"i am. the fuck does it matter?"
"we're going to her show tomorrow. you better have your shit together and tell her the truth"
"not telling her shit she doesn't know about."
Nick went in his room after that whole thing to talk to me but i told him i'll just see him tomorrow at the show. All night him and Matt texted me apologizing for chris's behavior and actions. nobody should feel sorry but Chris and Aya. Her brother got into her phone and sent everything he could of them and also took videos while i was gone which is how i knew he was cheating on me.
...
the crew ran around me trying to make sure everything was in perfect condition while i was just standing there in my own head. my blank expression made my manager pull me to the side for a moment. she wondered if i was gonna be okay. i still hadn't told anyone what happened so they're all clueless.
i went on stage and for a brief moment i was okay until i saw Chris in the stands.. The camera panned over to him and he blew me kisses and made hearts with his hands. i couldn't take it anymore
"i'm sorry can you stop really quick. i'm sorry"
the crowd was confused and so was my crew in the back.
"i don't mean to do this in the middle of the show but guys my boyfriend is here."
yells go over the arena and i quiet them down
"so in honor of my boyfriend being here i wanted to show you guys my new song. see i wrote it a couple days ago when i found out how much he truly loved me"
he said he loved me why does it hurt?
why does it haunt me? it's getting worse
I can't compete with him, it's so unfair
want to get even, i want revenge
"dumbass are you fucking Aya?"
"i am. the fuck does it matter"
seems like he's running from the truth but he can't hide
what's done in the dark comes to the light
as the photos and videos of him cheating come up on the screens behind me. the camera points to him looking helpless as i stand on stage singing my heart out. it felt great to finally be crying for a different reason. still hurting for the same reasons though. time will pass and eventually i'll get over it but i must say. revenge is sweet
he said he loved me
it doesn't hurt
why does it haunt me?
can't get no worse
he can't compete with me, i'm gonna win
want to get even, i want revenge
he said he loved me
AN: i just figured out i wrote this January 18th… baby its May 16th LMAOO
