Being otherkin for me right now is, I suppose calm. It isn't all gnashing teeth and rushing blood. It isn't all quadrobics and vocals.
When I discovered myself about two years ago, there was a period of intense self expression. Suddenly, after years of burying this side of myself- I remembered who I was. And I had a community to share that with (you guys).
It was constant quadrobics, vocal practice, buying gear, and moodboards galore.
Things are different now.
I still know who I am, but it's not an adventure anymore. I've reclaimed what I am. And while I have a lot to figure out, my identity is more hollistic now. My kinself is just part of my everyday life.
I growl and bark around friends, I climb the stairs on all fours, I wear my collars in public, I dress in ways that remind me of myself, I chose an academic subject where I can bring my experiences to the table in a meaningful way.
I've normalized my identity as an otherkin. I've become more whole, the way I was as a kid.
And in the process, things are more calm.
In some ways it feels like a loss, but I think its more of a transformation. Fitting for me as a shapeshifter.
I still get those periods of intensity where the tension between my two sides reemerges. But now those periods are the outliers.
This is where I am in my journey. Thank you for reading.
