IT'S BIG NEWS TIME! I'M NOT GOING TO MAKE YOU WAIT OR GUESS! I'M ENGAGED! THE MAYTHEM IS NOW MY FIANCEM!!
June of last year I was so terrified to make that OKCupid profile. Kait tried to assure me that I'd have a lot of bad dates and it would be normal and I shouldn't take it personally. I was afraid I was too broken for anyone to love me anyway, so what did it matter? And then Liz started quoting OFMD at me and a few weeks later I met them at a Russian icon museum and then spent 4 hours in a taqueria with them after, just chattering away. They kissed me in the street. My life hasn't been the same since.
They'll tell you they knew in that taqueria, but it took me longer to open up, to overcome my fears, to feel worthy of love. They talked me through it. We talk through everything. I don't have to guess what they're thinking or tip toe around worried I'm messing it up.
They're funny and smart and have a lot of cool interests and get along with my friends. They're up for adventures. They don't mind if I snore. They love me so much it makes me cry sometimes. In a good way. In a, I never thought any of this would be mine sort of way.
When I was driving out to that small Massachusetts town with that small museum in it I passed by a home with a large field to the side of it. It had a group of shrubs planted in the shape of a heart. I try not to give in to magical thinking, but it felt like a good sign nevertheless. Like maybe this could be a thing I mention in my vows someday. And maybe I will.
Maybe this one time, everything will turn out okay. 💕