September 10,2018
Dear Anak, I just want you to know that mommy loves you so much. Today marks mommy’s one-year released from mission. I know that you know full well why mommy was released. I love being a full-time missionary and I miss every second of it but I am now looking forward to be with your dad and you for all Time and Eternity. I have been longing to see you,hold you, wrapped your precious little body against my body and arms. Mommy is struggling right now but anak, everything is worth it. I will do everything and obey Him until there’s nothing left of me that I may at least qualify to His standards to be your guardian here on Earth. Na ipahiram ka Niya sa akin. Anak, mommy is not perfect in so many ways but I am always striving. Everything I do right now, ikaw yung nasa isip ko. Mahal na mahal kita. And I can’t wait for that time that I will carry you in my womb and kiss you on your forehead and take care of you. Anak, I am most grateful to our Savior, even Jesus Christ, for His Atonement. Because of it, we will not only be forgiven of our sins but will also reap blessings---even an Eternal Family. Although I’m so excited to see you and meet you, circumstances right now would not allow it. It’s not that mommy is not prepared; Heavenly Father knows that I will give up everything for you---all my comforts in life right now but I must wait---wait upon the Lord in His own timing and His own will.
Anak, please know that mommy has prayed for you so dearly. I hope that as you look upon me from the Pre-mortal life, you would want to choose me at least to be your guardian in here. Oh how my heart aches for you, my dear child, my litol sushi.
Mommy will teach you all the things she knows about the Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. My dear anak, I hope that someday you will be proud of mommy and daddy. We will strive to do and give our best for you, my dearest anak. Mahal na mahal ka ng mommy anak. I hope that with all the things you will learn as you grow. this Eternal Truth about my love for you being a child of God will forever retain in your heart. Anak, remember and keep His words and my words for it will teach you to walk safely back home. I love you my dearest litol sushi, my Light Honey. <3
Love you dearest, Mommy
