#myonlinediary

[ithasnothingtodo-withme]

30 Jan, 2023

Every try is so absurd. It yields nothing. All I did last year was giving this broken doll to him. Now, her broken pieces are scattered on his bedroom floor and he stomps over them everyday. I visit him to collect them but I can't seem to find the heart, soul and spark. Every corner of his room is a chest full of things he wants to hold onto but doesn't know how to treat...

[ithasnothingtodo-withme]

24 Dec, 2022

These days all I do is watch you. Slipping through my fingers. The sand of a sacred beach I picked up once. Standing far away on the shore. I won't do anything to stop it. How long before I let go of you to be where you are supposed to be. It's all vain, right? Trying to hold onto something like that. Some thing that changes its position after every hour when filled inside a glass jar. The things that disappears just when the wind starts to blow at a faster pace. I should've known when I picked you. But oh the aroma that air carried when I first visited that beach. The golden beam of hope holding my feet steady in the ground. Somehow makes me wonder if there's a way I can hold you a little longer.

[anythingyouwantmetobeiwill-blog]

I wish people other than porn blogs would follow me

I hugged you in my dream last night I never wanted to let go The summer will soon be fall Bringing the high down low I never thought ahead So i decided blindly I should have known "these things take time"- But instead i acted unkindly It was the music It was the sun It was his voice And the flipping of his tongue The air was hot  Cooling off with beers I stood in between his legs Waiting for his lips to near In that moment I felt supreme But it was over before i knew it Leaving me in the suns searing beam.

[i-lollihead-von-blog]

Day 02

September 23

(2:00am-3:00am) Di ako makatulog kahit tulog na si Mico, nasanay nalang siguro ako na ganitong oras gising pa. nag lalaro lang ako sa phone hanggang makatulog ako.

(9:00am) Pag gising ko. Gumawa ako ng portfolio sa pre-cal isang lesson lang then nakipaglaro kay Mico tapos mga 11-00am nagready na for school.

(12:30pm-1:15pm) Hinintay ko pa si mama bago umalis kaya sure na kong ma lelate ako kulang kasi baon ko kung di ako makakahingi sa kanya.

(2:20pm) LATE.  nagmamadali pa ko pero late padin sabi ko pa naman ang bilis ng byahe. Goodnews, wala teacher namin sa Filipino kaya ok lang. Halos lahat sa room nag cecellphone lang tapos yung iba nag uusap lang. Paiba iba sinamahan ko, Una kila Adam(c-mate kong mataba at mabait ) tapos sa grupo nila Charlie (c-mate ko na wala kong masabing masama).

(3:00pm) Lumabas kami sa gate ng TIP kumain sa labas kasama si Lemuel at si Macatantan. Kanya kanyang diskarte para makalabas medyo maaga pa kasi kaya nagpanggap kaming pangumaga. Hiwalay pa sila ng kinainan. Ako kalamares lang busog kasi ako di ko nga alam bat pa ko sumama.

(3:30pm) Pumasok na kami. Tambay muna sa room tapos naisip ko yung reporting ng group namin sa pre-cal kaya pumunta ko sa faculty nila Ms.Shine (Pre-cal Teacher) pag punta ko sabi wala daw kaya naisip ko na baka may klase pa.

(4:00pm) Bumalik ako sa faculty tapos yung teacher na parati kong pinagtatanungan yung pinagtanungan ko ulit, di ko alam name niya eh. Sabi ang kulit ko daw wala nga. So tinanong ko kung wala as in absent then sabi nya yes. Exited pa ko bumalik sa room  para sabihin ang another good news. Tapos nakita ko yung grupo nila Jollibee(nick name ng c-mate ko) tapos umupo ako sa tabi nila tsaka sinabi yung sinabi sakin ng teacher. Sa kanila ko muna sinabi kasi baka sabihin bida-bida ko okaya naman biglang nandyan pala si maam masabihan pakong paasa. Tapos sabi ko iconfirm nila sa faculty tapos yun sumama ko. Then ayon wala nga si maam  tapos sila na nagsabi sa loob ng room.

(5:00pm) Naglaro lang kami ng UNO cards sa loob ng room ( di ko alam pano ilalagay yung pictures) ang dami namin tapos medyo maingay. Hanggang mag uwian na.

(7:30pm) Nakauwi agad kami ng maaga. Walang pila sa gateway eh. Tapos pag uwi kain. Tinulungan ko din si Rhia(Pangatlo saming magkakapatid) sa assignment niya. Then computer ng isang oras.

(11:30pm) Tulog agad medyo maaga kasi pasok samin pag Saturday. Dapat talaga mga 1 pa tulog ko kahit Friday eh kaso nilamon ako ng kama nung mahiga ako.

End of the day 

[yukiowow-blog]

Japan Love

Love is something you can't give an exact dinifition. Compared in the Philippines, I used to have relationships where you often meet, giggle, and cuddle. But here in Japan, one thing is for sure you needed most. That is "Time" Japan is a very busy country. If you don't work hard, you'll starve to death. Plain working won't give you the extra money to do/buy things you love. And also, having a relationship is hard to find if you don't have TIME. I've been single for quite a long time now since I came here in Japan. I may have relationships but the most hard part of it is TIME. All I need is time. Time from you. I don't demand for meet ups always. Just a single text message from you or an hour to talk is enough for me. But you can't give it. It gives me shit. I don't know if I made my decision right leaving Philippines where I can work and have a relationship which gives me more time than texting and do stuff. Or is it really time for me to just work every single day and remove to my lifestyle the needs for Love. Sadlife.

[ispeaklazy]

CRUSH!

May crush ako dito sa tumblr. HAHAHAHA. Bket ba? Bawal? XD Ayy bsta. Secret. XD

[straubreyjeannebean]

“Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back . . . then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else.” 

― Sarah Cross, Kill Me Softly

Because when you truly love someone, their happiness comes first before your own. Whether their happiness doesn't include you.