@mzcal said: lavender, héliotrope !
heliotrope : does your muse believe in soulmates ?
Now; for Harold it’s both a yes and a no. He does not entirely agree with the overall concept modern society possesses of soulmates, ie. for them to always have to be a romantic affair, to be limited to a single person one is to meet once in a lifetime etc.
While his idealistic tendencies would have one believe he would be quick to subscribe to the idea, he is, in fact, a man serious and realistic enough to consider it little more than romantic idealisation, a fantastical way for society to describe the most desirable kind of a connection that can be achieved between two human beings.
That being said, he does, indeed, very much believe such close relationships considered as ‘soulmates’ are realistically achievable. He is perhaps not the biggest fan of the descriptor itself, but he understands why others would prefer to use it referring to their romantic or platonic bonds.
Harold isn’t sure he ever had a ‘soulmate’ himself; he cared for a great bunch of people in his life, alright, and, oh, how much he cared for them! But rarely has his affection been reciprocated quite to the same degree he tends to display.
Perhaps, at times, he simply… cares a little too much. Feels a little too much.
Then again, he isn’t entirely certain what a soulmate even is supposed to feel like, so... how would he be able to tell at all?
lavender : how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ? once their trust is broken , how might one go about mending it ?
It is fairly easy to gain his trust, really! And even if one was to disappoint him in any shape or manner, if the trust was to be broken, he would be pretty quick to forgive the mishap. He would hurt, yes; he would pretend the ‘betrayal’ does not get to him too much, but he, indeed, would need a little time to still his broken heart.
However! Despite the resentment and hurt he might feel, he is very quick to rationalise the other’s behaviour, to apply context to their actions, to try and reason why such bothersome behaviour would be warranted at all.
He does not want to be mad. And he wishes to forgive. To understand. God, how badly he wishes to do so! He despises unnecessary conflict and prefers to talk things out, should misunderstandings or lapses in judgement threaten his peaceful coexistence with others.
Harold is just… a very gentle, soft character in general. And even though it hurts; he knows the only way to mend a wound is to clean the injury and apply medication to it, to care for it; he prefers to nurture his relationships, instead of letting things fester. He does bottle things up a lot, indeed, yes; but these are displayed through bouts of depressive moods, rather than outbursts of anger.
He’s too caring and loving to hold a grudge for too long. What’s the point anyway?
What’s the point of letting hurt poison your life, when you could work through it together with your loved ones? What’s the point of wallowing in misery, when hugs and apologies are so much more effective social strategies, overall?
Apologise. It’s as easy as that. Apologise, explain where you think you went wrong and as far as he is concerned, no wrong has ever been done. Now? All that’s left to do is to derive consequences from the event, to apply them in the future, building a more harmonious environment with every little step taken.
botanical headcanons [ accepting ]
