#n5e personal

[neopets5ever]

not neo related

I wasn’t going to post in caps, but I really need to: 

I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND WE ARE IN LOVE - LIKE LOVE LOVE AND IT’S THE MOST AMAZING FEELING IN THE WORLD. 

I’m having some trust problems with my RL friends right now and I can’t make a post on my personal tumblr about the “love” part because we haven’t been together that long and they might freak out because it’s also a poly relationship and she’s been with her boyfriend for 8 years and I also think that’s great. We feel this soul connection and it’s overwhelming and amazing and I’m so happy but I hate that we live almost 2 hours apart and we’re super busy I just want to swing by after work and hang out and be normal aaahhh. 

*cough*

anyway.. neopets

[neopets5ever]

More personal stuff

so I haven't been here/active for awhile.. because real life has been a bit too real for me

Once home we did our best to make him comfortable. Each day was a trial both physically and emotionally. We had a few scares here and there. My mom and I were realistic about it: we knew he wouldn't be back to "normal" whereas most of the family was in great denial. 

On December 8th around 11:45 pm my grandfather passed away. He was 85 years old.

I was very close to him. My parents divorced when I was 4 and I spent almost every day at my grandparent's house after school / when my mom was at work. He really was like a dad to me.

It's been hard. It is hard. I miss him something awful.

But.. if you're seeing a post from me and thinking 'oh I haven't seen her post in awhile' - that's why. Since March I haven't had much interest in participating in online communities. Now it's time for healing and keeping my grandma's spirit's up.  

[neopets5ever]

Well my tonsillectomy went well. Now I am just extremely tired and sore. Bleh. I'm totally taking pictures every day to track my progress (I started typing goregress, nice). 

Can only whisper, but I made some voice recordings before I had the surgery including messages calling my cats and one that yells "MOM!" hahaha.