(talk of like death and stuff) (vent)
so my aunt died this afternoon but I've literally never met her (last time my parents saw her was 6 months before I was born) and I'm not really sure how to react because no one else is really reacting
like I feel sick and kinda mournful but then again, she's a complete stranger. My mum's main worry wasn't "my sister just died", it was "my OTHER sister and my dad might be sad"
I think I also feel a bit guilty because I had a really good day today, I went to a safari park and saw loads of cool animals, including being basically as close to an Elephant and lion as you can safely be, I bought a little plushie of a gorilla who hangs around my neck and bought my mum a rhino keyring because she adores rhinos.
I just need to get these feelings out somewhere because it's making me feel ill and no one really understands why I should care, I also feel guilty about caring "more" than people who "should" care more than me (eg my mum, my uncle, and my nan (it wasn't her daughter who died, but she was her step mum for nearly 20 years))