Bewildered is most accurate word for where I am
Bad habits breed bad rituals and yet here I am
2:51am
I wake up not with a start but an ache
The day prior spent burning in my lust
And beaten inches near death by my mistrust
It’s now 3:15 and the next best thing is to burn my throat
Tears beat against my self restraint from the inside
Are these demons are trying to come out and play?
I can’t tell, I’m unsure if they bare me ill will
I cannot feel they either way
And all I know is that even they won’t stay
-Nana b.



