#napr

[noviaapriliani]

its start over and over again

[noviaapriliani]

oh hai ,, 

malam ini terjadi lagi, sesak ini datang lagi  seperti apa kata ku ,, selalu datang diwaktu yang tidak tepat i cant do anything 

i miss you, so bad 

[noviaapriliani]

selepas itu

bagaimana kabar mu ? bahagiakah disana ? dengan siapa dirimu ? bahagiakah disana? dimana dirimu ? bahagiakan disana?

kau tau ? selepas kerusakan yang aku perbuat dan pergi mu yang tak menoleh  dalam setiap ulang tahunku selalu ku ucapkan “bahagia diriku bahagialah” dan dengan senang hati mendoakan kebahagiaan untuk orang disekeliling ku.. 

kau tau ?  banyak upaya yang harus aku tempuh untuk menemukan kebahagiaannku .. yang entah kau bawa ? atau entah kuhilangkan .. 

kau tau ? sesak dada ini kadang muncul bukan pada tempatnya ,, merusak semua yang sudah aku rencanakan .. dan ketika dia datang .. semua yang sudah aku usahakan menjadi sia sia, aku benci ,, 

kau tau ? semua terasa lebih berat saat aku merindukan masa masa saat aku benar benar menjadi diriku seutuhnya .. saat sosok wanita lemah yang berani menantang dunia sebesar ini, saat aku tau apapun yang akan kuperbuat kau akan tetap ada disitu.

kau tau ? aku menangis saat ku ceritakan ini semua dan mengenang lagi ,, saat aku ingin marah tapi ini salah ku,, saat aku ingin pergi tapi aku yang meninggalkan ,, saat hampa dan tidak tau harus apa . sudahlah

nanti akan aku ceritakan lebih banyak saat sesak ini kembali hilang .. 

[noviaapriliani]

kosong

sebuah rasa yang tak mengerti darimana asalnya pedih, bagai aku merasakan luka teramat dalam entah dari mana, tapi seperti ibukota yang tiba tiba kosong, listrik yang tiba tiba padam panas yang berganti hujan, pelangi yang tak muncul dan semua yang ditarik menghilang .. entah darimana aku bisa menjabarkannya sakit, bagai aku merasakan luka teramat dalam entah dari mana..

[colorfulcephalopod]

Not an Average Progress Report

It wasn’t too long since Feferi had moved to SkaiaNet Institute. As part of her registration, a copy of her study was sent to the nearby labs. She would have to go in every so often to be checked, letting her information be updated. It so happened that today was a day to go in.

She got up early, and dressed in white capri pants and a white shirt. Out of a habit for classes, Feferi tied up her tentacles in a matching ribbon. She slipped on her shoes and headed out the door. 

It was a bit of a walk to the labs from her housing. Feferi took it with a smile, though. She took this time to look about the campus in a different light. 

At the labs, Feferi showed her student ID card, and explained that she was there for her progress appointment. She was taken inside and to the lab that would conduct the tests. The tests, unsurprisingly, didn’t take long. They were the same ones that she had back home, with her pseudo-family. When they were finished, she was escorted to the same door she came in through; the one that was on the border of the campus.

She was heading back so that she could study and finish her homework, maybe hang out with Aradia. Those ideas were stopped when she saw a humanoid figure low to the ground. She paused to watch as the figure went after some of the woodland creatures that were in the field. The sight caused her to giggle. A bit too loudly, it seemed, as the figure’s- a catboy maybe?- attention turned to her. So, the girl waved and introduced herself. “Hi there! I’m Feferi.”