#nausiwindstrider

[kerfufflewatch]

Hey I saw referance to you having a hanahaki fic. It was on that awesome drawing with McCree looking at bloody blue flowers. I tried to search your blog but couldn't find it. Can you please link it?

I sure did do that thing! It’s a little older now, but that’s on my AO3 >here.<

[words-writ-in-starlight]

Garrus is my favorite too. He's the sweetest muffin. Talia is a very close second.

Garrus! Is! Delightful!  Don’t tell me anything about the plot because @vernalseason is really enjoying watching me curse at the Council a lot in my obliviousness, but LISTEN, I love this game, and I love Garrus.  Also: I want Joker to be my best friend.  He’s grumpy and snarky and clever and I want to be BEST FRIENDS with him because he’s an ASSHOLE and I’m PREDICTABLE.

I have a bunch of Paragon points because I’m nice to people...and about as many Renegade points because I keep getting in fights with the Council.  Nobody hurt themselves in their shock.

[pomegranate-belle]

For the word meme either 'Dash' or 'Fast'

This one took a few tries! It’s from my partially-posted DD fic Things You Leave Behind. The sentence it’s in is only three words, so I kept the two sentences afterwards for a little context, lol:

Young, fluttering, fast. No older than eight. Matt can barely hear its terrified patter over the shuddering bang of a fist against the door.

[littledemonlorne]

👻Bat

I have a tuxedo cat named Ares. He’s fifteen pounds of blep. :3

[gealach-in-a-misty-world]

Oh, anon. The short answer is no.

Firstly, let me thank you for alerting me to the fact that their “critique” has been posted, as I’ve been threatened with for two weeks now. At least now it’s out.

What anon is referring to is this:

I’ve been advised to let this go for my health but I won’t accept being slandered in return. A “critique” I can get behind, but I don’t want to see any lies being spread. So no, I have not been slandering sniktice and their partner. What I guess they’re referring to is that last week, following their ultimatum and reporting of my fic to ao3 (but more on that later), I contacted the grand total of six (six. Not sixty, not six hundred; SIX) of my followers, who are also friends, and told them the following, which I’ll copy-paste for the sake of transparency:

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“I wanted to give you a heads-up that my fic *might* be deleted by ao3 at it was reported by a person that has been harassing me for a month, and who is still harassing me. I tell you this to warn you to be wary of this person as they seem kind and sincere at first, they lure you in with mindless chatter, gradually demand more and more attention, and finally start with their harassing and demanding you bend to their every whim.They're emotionally manipulative. It's sniktice. I played nice up until now, I never even told their name to others as I know they received shit in December, with that thing with cykelops; but now I'm done. I don't want other people to believe their lies or fall for them and be harassed next.”

Firstly, if I’d wanted to slander them I’d have written a public post. I’d have publicly denounced them; I wouldn’t have contacted only six people, I’d have spread the word. Secondly, I never mentioned their partner. Never. I did block their partner, but I never uttered a word about them: they’ve been nothing but polite to me, and I only blocked them to avoid dealing with anyone that was associated with sniktice. Any of the people I contacted last week can attest to the fact that I never mentioned sniktice’s partner, so the fact that they’re using that lie to “justify” posting their critique is quite telling in itself. Now, onto the accusation of slandering proper, that is: “Have I been lying? Am I trying to remove them from the community?” My purpose in sending those six messages wasn’t to remove them from the community, but to create a safety net for myself. As a friend made me realize, what sniktice has been trying to do was to isolate me, so naturally I sought to warn other people of what was happening. As of last week, only two people knew what I was facing, and even then I refrained from saying sniktice’s name, out of respect for them, because I still thought this could be dealt with maturely and, as I say above, I didn’t want to invite anons to their inbox [and I do hope that no one goes to their inbox now. I will not condone that]. One of these two surmised two weeks ago that the person I was dealing with was sniktice, and I confirmed it. This person urged me to try and have a conversation with sniktice and offered to moderate it, but things went south real fast, partly because of me too, because I was tired and exhausted and I’d frankly had enough. We closed that conversation rather heatedly.

Why had I had enough? Why do I say, in that message, that I’m being harassed and they were emotionally manipulative? That is, is that statement slander? It goes like this. In January or late December, I don’t remember the exact date, sniktice contacted me. We chatted. We began to chat a lot, almost daily. At the same time, they told me they’d begun reading my series. I was obviously very excited and we began talking about it too. They started pointing out to me missing warnings and the like, and I added them, grateful. At some point, I realized that the material would potentially be extremely triggering and I urged them to stop reading. I urged them to stop reading multiple times, and quite vocally. They read it anyway. They were so upset, after that, that in an effort to assuage their fears I told them the ending. Sniktice knows that I’m aware of the problems they’re posing and that I will acknowledge them in-story. I won’t touch upon what they say in their critique; I’ll let the story speak for itself, when it’s done. If I do fail in successfully convey my meaning, as they gleefully predict, so be it. At least I know I’m trying. I do want to say that their accusation that the story is inappropriately tagged isn’t true. I’ve been assured by multiple people that it is appropriately tagged. But sniktice isn’t interested in the story being appropriately tagged and other people being “protected” from it. This thing - them being upset, me telling them the ending - happened around the 15th of February. They wrote me a critique too, shorter than the one that’s doing the rounds now. I can’t remember if the backbone is the same, but I supposed it is. So I told them the ending, we started chatting again, end of the story. Except no, because then it truly began. They started finding faults with everything I wrote, adding new things with every breath, to the point were it began affecting my health too. I told them they were causing me anxiety attacks, they said they didn’t care. They would “control themselves” (their words, not mine) for a few days and then unload it all again, with throw-away comments, and long messages when I wasn’t online. At some point I said I didn’t want to engage in this anymore, but they just kept going. They wanted - want - me to “acknowledge” that I f****d up horribly and that the narrative does all kinds of terrible things and that fiction affects reality. They want me to bend over backwards and say they’re right and I’m a monster, probably, and never to write again. But when I refused to engage, they got stalker-y. They sent me a version of the critique that’s doing the rounds now, and told me that if I didn’t answer the points they were making, point by point, they’d post it. Their actual phrasing: “I want to make it clear that if you do not at least take the time to read through this, there is a very high chance that I will post it to Tumblr.” This was two weeks ago, and I already said what happened. We talked, we didn’t solve anything, we parted ways. Or so I thought. After that conversation sniktice blocked me. Then they they un-blocked me, sent me a few heated messages, and a lovely ultimatum:

Notice how this isn’t about protecting fellow readers from the harm that would come from reading my fic. If that were the case, they’d tell me what the problem is, and I’d tag it, as they used to do at the beginning. No, the problem is how horrid my narrative choices are, and how I should cater to them and write what they want, basically. So, after that ultimatum, what was I supposed to do? Cower and give in and submit to their disingenuous scrutiny? Oh, but they didn’t really *give* me the time to do that. The ultimatum was proforma, because not even half a hour later they were gloating, over at their blog, that they’d finally reported me.

So, after that, yes. I wrote to six people and told them what had been happening, because I wanted to warn them that the fic might get taken out, and that sniktice is emotionally manipulative and had been harassing me. Whether that statement was slander, I’ll let you decide.

[weaponsofclairvoyance]

nausiwindstrider replied to your post: you think you’ve seen height difference...get on...

I’m sorry help I can’t tell who everyone is

left to right it’s everett, jono starsmore, monet, husk w/short hair i think, jubilee, and skin. im focused on the 2:1 jubilee to monet ratio though luv them

[noirsongbird]

I watched the first ep of Netflix's Voltron. I'm hooked. I have fuzzy memories of the original. Watched it when I was a kid. Looking forward to have Lotor feels.

Aaahhh!! Yay, I hope you enjoy the new series, because obviously I love it a WHOLE WHOLE LOT. It’s really great, and I really love the characters and everything we’re given.

Lotor shows up in Season 3 and he is SO WORTH THE WAIT, I hope you enjoy all the feels, because there’s some excellent shit there :D ANYWAY WELCOME TO VOLTRON IT’S SUPER GOOD.

[scottxlogan]

11 Questions

11 Questions

I was tagged by @sheisstrangerthanfiction

✰ post the rules ✰ answer the questions given to you by the tagger ✰ write eleven questions of your own ✰ tag eleven people

Eleven questions:

 1. What’s your favorite childhood memory?  I honestly don’t know. I wish I could pinpoint one, but I really can’t think of one. I don’t know if that is good or bad.

2. Who was your first childhood hero? Wonder Woman. When I was really young I was introduced to Wonder Woman through the old shows with Lynda Carter. I used to dress up in Wonder Woman costumes all the time because I wanted to be just like her and truth be told I thought she was so cool and such a great superhero that I even got my ears pierced because I wanted to be just like her when I was six years old. I think that’s why it is important that young people have those kind of role models to look up to and identify with growing up.

3. What was your favorite class in school and why? I think I’m going to go with the 3d classes I’ve taken in college just because I love the idea of creating something from nothing and watching it grow and evolve into a completed project. Plus it was one of the first times where I could kind of choose my own direction on what kind of assignments I wanted to do and I was pushing myself to grow and evolve and learn in ways that went outside of the classroom. 

4. Who is the most inspiring character to you (movie, book, TV show)? Scott Summers. I know there are a lot of great characters out there, but I really find myself inspired by Scott because here is a character who by Marvel standards should’ve grown up to be a villain according to their narrative, but he was able to survive the odds and come out a stronger person. He endured a lot of trauma and abuse as a child and really lived through some horrible things that made him stronger along the way. Plus Scott isn’t always the most popular or well liked of characters, but he makes the tough decisions. He does the things in being a leader that others don’t have to. When the whole AvX garbage went down he wasn’t thinking about what it would do to him as an individual, but rather he was willing to self-sacrifice for the greater good of the people around him even knowing that at the end of the day they were going to undoubtedly hate him. He gets a lot of heat for being the way he is, but a lot of people on his team would be lost without him. There are so many things about him that I identify with myself with the way my life has been I guess. Plus he’s got so many layers that I can’t help, but appreciate that.

5. What is your dream vacation?  If money were no object, where would you go, what would you do, what do you most want to see and eat?   I’d go to NYC. I go there whenever I get the chance, but there’s something very inspiring about being there and just taking in the atmosphere of the place. Every time I take a trip out there it brings out the creative bug inside of me and I find myself wanting to write and create. Usually when I’m there I spend a lot of time outside in the parks and exploring the city. It’s great to take in the atmosphere and there is always something happening around you. Just being around that kind of vibe helps the artist in me thrive. As for food admittedly I don’t eat much when I’m in the city just because food and I do not get along, but if I had to pick I would go to this Chinese place out there that has gluten free food (which where I live like almost never happens).

6. What is your biggest fear and is there anything you do to attempt to get beyond it or do you just hold your breath and deal with it when it comes up? My biggest fear is failure. Every time I mention that someone around me is quick to point out the ways in which I failed at something, but the thing is the despite the anxiety issues I have it’s that overwhelming fear that I’ll completely fail at live and never accomplish my dreams that really terrifies me. It’s a tough battle for me, but some days it is easy to give into that feeling like it’s going to take me under though a friend once told me that I needed to think about something that makes me happy when I’m feeling the most upset about what could go wrong.

7. What is your go-to daydream? I guess it would be that I was able to write a book and live in NYC doing something that makes me really happy.

8. What is your biggest comfort food? I can’t really think of one, but I have a horrible Dr. Pepper addiction that gets me when I’m feeling stressed out.

9. What is your favorite scent? Vanilla, there is this one wax air freshener that my mom has and every time I walk into the house it just smells super delicious lol

10. Where would you most like to live in the world? NYC. Not like anyone couldn’t have guessed. 

11. What song(s) can you listen to that always put you in your happy place? Uptown Funk because it reminds me of the road trips my sis and I took on the way to competition and it just fit the whole time period I guess.

My Eleven Questions:

1. If you could meet anyone alive or dead and spend a day with them, who would it be?

2. If you were in a zombie apocalypse and could pick a team of 6 other people/characters to fight with you, who would you choose?

3. Do you prefer the morning or night time?

4. Do you consider yourself an extrovert, an introvert or somewhere in the middle? 5. What do you consider your biggest success so far? 6. Superheroes or super villains? 7. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life from here on out what would it be? 8. Name five things you can’t live without. (Pretend I put that in question form lol) 9. Pretend that you have an alternate persona as your secret identity like Superman or Batman. Who would you be and what would you do? (It can be a completely original made up persona or an established one. It doesn’t matter) 10. If you knew what day you were going to die, what would you do with the rest of your life while you were here? 11. If you could tell the world one thing to really convey who you are, what would it be?

Tagging @hughxjackman @claire-luna @cosmiccontrolrod @sgfic @avengingxmen @nausiwindstrider @chiarucci @cykerine @justsmilestuffhappens @beni-o2​ @nordrike