#nazmazh

[gobs-o-cs]

"Uh, Boss? You sure about this? This stuff ain't exactly battle-tested. Or field-tested under expected conditions. Or, uh, any. Conditions, that is. Like, we -just- got them to the point where they weren't exploding on the work bench, uh, if I'm bein' honest, 'ere."

Nazmazh

(He/Him)

Goblin Artificer, Armorer

Chaotic Good

Guild Artisan Background - Tinker / Smith

Dice Set #27 - Blue Swirls w/ Gold Numbers

[gobs-o-cs]

Enough of a semblance of a backstory for Nazmazh, the character is written up that I feel ready to move on.

In writing it, I realized that a lot of it is really the story of the whole party that he's a part of, so I'll probably edit things around between all of them in the future - But also go back and edit Cassidy's story that I have written to incorporate what I figured out for/with Naz.

Actually, I probably will try to do that with each character I establish as being part of the same group (ie: any of the distinct adventuring parties/companies/regional characters I've already got built up a little bit in my mind).

It's tricky trying to write any sort of overall, concrete narrative when my brain keeps going "You know who this character would pair great with!?" whenever I come up with someone new.

On the one hand, yeah, it's great that the ideas keep flowing and building off each other.

On the other hand, it means I'm too worried to put much out there into the world, in case some time down the line, I decide that this other character should have been a part of this story all along.

Guess that comes with the territory of writing characters first, then trying to place them, rather than writing a story and making a character to fit that hole.

At any rate, don't want to get hung up on this stuff for too long - That's how I've stalled out on several previous creative bursts - Frustration and not wanting to move on before finishing something, but then being unable to finish it, so just taking a long break before coming back to a fresh topic later anyway.

So, onto the next character!

[laas-yahnir]

nazmazh replied to your post “something I wish the internet at large would do more often: rewatch...”

I have Contra's video queued up for later this evening when I have the time. Rewatching that Innuendo Studios one might just be a good lead-in.

Might be! I ended up going the other way around, lol... didn’t want to stop Natalie’s once I’d already started. I think a lot of what Ian says could unfortunately be construed in defense of Twitter cancel culture, but at the end of the day I think the mindset he calls “puritanical” is really important to understand and apply to all sides of discourse. What Natalie experienced makes me think that way too many people are still prone to being, to paraphrase, fixated on the quality of a person’s character -- only they get to claim that dunking on people en masse is the woke-activist thing to do when those people say something problematic, because that thing was problematic regardless. And it is indeed important to understand what Ian is talking about, that someone’s intent doesn’t necessarily have a bearing on the impact of their actions... but I think the inverse of that is just as important for us to keep in mind: that impact is not necessarily indicative of intent. And maybe that’s just me having too much faith in people, but I really do think that we’d get a lot further if we treated people as, first and foremost, fundamentally trying their best with what they have.

[laas-yahnir]

nazmazh replied to your post “so my other grandma is dying, has been for the last several days – if...”

My sympathies, friend. I just have the one grandma left out of all of my grandparents, and like, even though anytime in the last ~15 or so years I could have gotten -that- call that she was gone and it wouldn't have entirely shocked me per se, it would have gutted me. It still will utterly gut me, whenever it inevitably happens. Knowing that something is inevitable, either in that intangible, abstract sense, or a concrete, real sense - doesn't mitigate that loss at all.

Thanks so much <3333 That was sort of how it was with both of them, to be honest... neither of them were the healthiest people in their later years, unfortunately. It was slightly different with my dad’s mom; she was in nursing homes from the time I was 12 (and in and out of the hospital for many years prior), so The Call didn’t shock me at all. Made me feel sick and horrendously sad, but didn’t shock me. My mom’s mom has had a lot of chronic conditions, but they’d been managed well enough until too many things started piling up and stacking the deck against her, so while it’s not been shocking, it’s definitely been more of a sudden decline -- though my dad’s mom passed within an hour of The Call, whereas I got The Call for my mom’s mom a few days ago and she’s still here.

I think the only thing really mitigating this in any capacity is that past experience has given me an idea of what it will be like afterward, as well as the fact that I’ve really seen how much our family cares for one another and for her... for real, I lucked out with my family. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m losing someone who has played a crucial role in my life, but it helps me know that I’ll come out the other side eventually -- not having forgotten her, obviously, but having accepted her new role in my life, as someone I remember rather than as someone I see and talk to in my everyday life.

Here’s hoping you have plenty of time left with your grandma <3