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That 'starting to write the last chapter' feeling

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Errant

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have YOU read nothing comes from nothing?

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The State of Things

Co-author, Lain, here. Let me start by saying depression sucks. I have been battling it for about two years now, and I’m so very tired. More often than not lately, my wife’s (and co-author) support is the only thing keeping me going. (Medication helps, but lack of funds make therapist appointments impossible, even with insurance.)

Despite being in a horrible funk and not feeling like doing a damned thing, I finally felt a little spark of creativity again from my muse. Its visits are increasingly fleeting and rare. That said, just today, I had been looking over Chapter 18, checking my parts and readying to attempt finishing my scenes. Then I noticed a new review. I wasn’t worried; they’d all been encouraging and pleasant recently. This one moved away from that trend.

It was critical of several plot points and characterization, but the thing is, it wasn’t cruel. It was done with respect and thought and honesty. The critiques were explained. No hateful words were bandied about, and I didn’t feel attacked. I actually appreciate the time put into it, and it made me question the very things that were mentioned. It has spurred me to take an outsider’s look at things and see if there are any tweaks we want to make in editing later. So, I applaud the reviewer.

That said, as someone who is currently dealing with anxiety and severe depression, it feels like my self-esteem has been savagely beaten. My desire to write has curled up in a dark corner and all but disappeared completely. I don’t blame the reviewer and feel no ill-will towards them. It’s simply awful timing.

I’m writing this to shed some light on the types of obstacles we’ve faced the last couple of years because while I’m the one dealing with the depression, my wife is the one who is dealing with me. I hope that you, our readers, will understand the delay a little better and will continue to be patient with us as we try to get things ordered enough to continue this story. Thank you all for your support during this extended wait.

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