#needtoquit

[dai5ybooboo]

My head hurts, I need to stop vaping 😣

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#asthetic #needtoquit

[forthephire]

*ROUND OF APPLAUSE GOES TO* So I'm at a friends dorm hanging out when one of her roommates friends starts talking about her boyfriends point of view on race....long story short he is Armenian and German and he sees himself as TRANS AFRICAN.......what in the blue hell does that even mean though?!

[nesira]

This is the end, it is time for changes.

I want to talk but not to drag this out, short story then my dilemma. I have struggled with addictions my whole life, since I was a teenager. I ended up a heroin addict, and continued my druggin through my early 20's - I finally got clean sometime in like 2003. I stayed clean through NA for 4 years, I do believe I celebrated 3 out of 4 years in my recovery. I have now been smoking pot for the past 4 years or so. October 2012 I quit cigarettes, and I think it's time to stop using pot as my crutch to self medicate. I also want to be taken off of these antidepressants I have also been on for about a decade, if not it's close to it. I don't want to be that same angry person I was when I got clean. I think that is what has kept me smoking the chiba for so long. Now I feel it is time to make positive changes for my health and my life, and that means I cannot keep smoking this shit every day. I have struggled with depression and many other issues and probably need a psych doctor, and some therapy to start. Did I also mention I am currently unemployed and uninsured. How the fuck am I supposed to wean myself off of an antidepressant that is an SSRI and I can't just stop taking it, and stop smoking weed at the same time. I have been having problems with the side effects of the medication and want to stop taking it but it's unhealthy to just stop this med abruptly. I want to believe that being off the meds, not self medicating, and doing exercise, eating healthy and seeing a doctor regularly just in case I really need some sort of medication, but I don't want to be drugged up on antidepressants and anti psychotic meds. I am afraid. I have not really been this open about this to anyone in a long time until recently. I think I was choosing to stay in denial. I didn't get off the shit to spend my life in a cloud of fucking smoke - this should be easy, why is it seemingly so hard?! I know what I have to do, I don't know why I have been putting it off. I know good things will come of it.