#negative 97

[squidwardofficial]

ive only seen 2 people all day this has been really weird. like i hate what my brain is doing. every few minutes i see him in my head, i hear his voice, everything reminds me of him. every. single. thing. i just want him back man. like nothing else in the world. i feel like i cant function. ive been sitting in my bed trying to do my work for like 4 hours and i cant do anything. i dont even know anymore.

[squidwardofficial]

i don't even know what to say im a fucking wreck i just need someone and i have no one

[squidwardofficial]

im having really terrible thoughts right now

[squidwardofficial]

i wanna work at the site today but i also just want to go home is it better to occupy myself or lock myself away?

[squidwardofficial]

i have the best pup jasmine literally just snuggled with me and licked my face as i cried she just lets me hug her and she rests her head on my chest and my god she's the best

[squidwardofficial]

what do i do when i want/need to cry but i can't? legitimate question

[squidwardofficial]

goddamnit im feeling like absolute shit i just want him back i hate myself i don't know what to do i have therapy this afternoon but i don't know if i can handle talking through the whole thing again like i want to cry but i also never want to cry again this is the worst day so far what the hell is happening to me

[squidwardofficial]

i think ive progressed into the numb period