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I miss writing my "Dear Kim Myungsoo" posts.

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There are these two guys.

I'm having this weird emotion on two guys.

The first one is a personal friend of mine. . . But still, he's a friend and I wanted to keep it that way. I can't tell him that I honestly like him, because it might mean losing the friendship that is still unsteady... I trust him a lot. I don't know if I actually like him or is it just because I'm using him since my best friend is far away and he's the closest possible option? (Which is extremely unfair on his part)

The second one is a 'friend' I met somewhere that I wouldnt tell. I told myself never to get ATTATCHED. But it happened. It wasn't the first time, but this one's a different case. He was a very confusing person. His thoughts and moods are as confusing as mom's. But I had the feeling that I wanna talk to him, I wanna be close to him. But something came up that I couldn't even put myself to talk to him.

I think what happened is, he reminds me of a character from a story I'm reading... Sadly, the story affects my thoughts, my thoughts affects my moods and there I was... I finally saw myself hating him and holding out the last bit of pride in my palm. 

Both of them, I see them as friends, but they're different. I trusted one, and wanted to trust the other two. But they were so close yet distant that it starts to get too confusing. But as an escape I chose to deny deny deny. It is a stupid move, but its the only thing I'm brave enough to do.

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Am I really a writer?

I'm so freakin' frustrated right now. :(

I seriously wanted to write and finish all my work but I just can't put my heart in to it. I wanna write but I don't know why I can't write it.I think emotions and thoughts are too crowded in my head right now and I'm not sure how to handle it well. 

I want to finish writing but I don't think its good enough. I don't think its good enough for me to be called a writer... If I was asked if I wanna be a writer, waaaay back when I was younger... I'd say yes. But now, I'm starting to have second thoughts. 

I honestly don't know where do I go from now.I don't know what should I do to put myself to a proper thinking mindset that I could write... I NEED TO STOP PROCRASTINATING. But I don't know how, I wanted to do it. I just don't know how I could put myself to do it.

Until now I'm doubting. I know I could write... I thought through experience I'd learn more and enhance my 'skills' but I don't think writing was really my place. 

I think right now I'm still finding myself and I just thought I am a writer... and yet I dont think I am one. :( 

I'm seriously confused. 

[shizeuni]

tagged by seoul-stealer

Rules: Post the rules. Answer the questions that the post asked and come up with 11 new ones. Tag 11 people and link them to your post. Tell them you have tagged them.

Questions for me:

1. How are you, really? (Cause if you answer this in a negative way I want you to know that I’ll always listen to your problems <3) I'm doing fine. Haha. I don't know, I guess my mood goes up and down a lot...

2. What is your earliest childhood memory? I mostly just get images but what I remember very clearly is when I almost drowned after jumping into a pool and my dad saved me. Lol.

3. What did you think about before you fell asleep last night? Erm, someone.

4. If you had only 24 hours left to live, what would you do ? Tell everyone. Right my wrongs. Finally confess to A.

5. If you could date any celebrity or fictional character, who would it be and why? Most likely Myungsoo. I'm Yeol-biased but I think I'd rather date Myung.

6. If the world were to experience a zombie apocalypse, what would be your weapon of choice? Oh, wow. My friends and I actually have a plan about this shiz. We'd all look for sharp objects right when it starts and fight our way to a police station or even just a guard and get his handgun. I'd love a machete, though.

7. What do you love and hate the most about the human race? How we can be brought together by something we all have in common and I hate how easily we all can be driven apart.

8. Do you have any fetishes? If so, what are they? Collarbones. *A*

9. How would you describe yourself? Small, rude, annoying, loud, bitchy, hilarious, sexy. Haha.

10. What song represents your life?  

11. If you could be any mythological creature, which would you want to be? Why? I think being a gumiho would be fun because eating hearts/livers yeah. Loljk. But I'd love to be a phoenix, too. Y'know, pretty symbolic. Rising from the ashes, all that.

Questions for you:

Why don't we talk? Seriously.

Concerts you've been to, kpop or not.

Top five fandoms?

Latest fandom you got into?

Animal you'd be?

Song to describe your day?

Where you're from?

One thing you love about yourself?

One of your flaws?

Are you more on Twitter or Tumblr?

What do you think of me?

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seoul-stealer (wahaha)

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jjangwoos

yeolspirit

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pollynomials

myunghoar

littlebaby-lulu

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INSPIRITS AROUND THE WORLD. ME WANNA MEET YOU. LIKE THIS OR VISIT MY T.A FOLLOW ME AND I'LL FOLLOW YOU ;D

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Yeeeeey. I'm back.

After many months. I'm finally back. Gone because of a broken crappy pc and I lost internet connection. (Yeah. It sucks, a lot!) Anyways. I lost followers. Oh, well. Hope I could get those awesome people back. 

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK. XD