I didn't think i would even care..
When someone tells you they want someone more than you.. yes, it hurts. It hurts like being dumped under a wave.. you feel numb, you lose your voice, your breath and your vision. You feel like you're going to die, your past with them flashes before your eyes, you're left a mess with knots all through your hair and choking up what you just consumed. Your tears are wept out of your body but no one can see them cause your so far under. It feels like someone you love dying; you feel empty and nothingness.
You know what? he's gonna miss out. He will never experience the love i was prepared to give him, never have me make him breakfast in bed, never buy him sweet little things never have me sing him banana pancakes in the morning and bring him banana pancakes in bed. Never have me kiss him under water or snuggle him in the cold weather. Never go to little cafes and sit there all day and drink tea and talk, never kiss him in the sand or run my fingers through his hair. I wanted to love you, i want to love you..
Its over, you're done. Its another chapter. Instead of dwell, i'll rise and i'll find someone who wants to fight for the great love i want to give. The past 5 months thinking of you every night and morning are just a memory now, the poems i wrote you mean nothing and yet i still want you? i need to let this go, someone teach me how!?