#new years queue

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i want to get rid of the stigma surrounding older people enjoying media deemed as “for kids.” as an adult i struggle to enjoy the shows and books that are recommended as amazing, life changing pieces of adult media. i watched almost a whole season of westworld and i still feel fucked up about it sometimes. i watched mr. robot and had a subsequent few weeks where my perception of reality struggled. i constantly get told, well those shows are for adults, a more mature audience, and sure that might be true, but my question is, is it designed for a more mature audience, or is it for people who need to experience some sort of trauma? i have honestly always enjoyed animated shows more than live action ones. i have always preferred fantasy over realistic fiction. i have never been sure whether my preference is because of my brain having a hard time differentiating between what i think is real and what isnt, or my inherent need to escape reality. but now i wonder, is it common in adults to experience that escape in fiction in wild, traumatic ways? i love steven universe, and yes there is a war going on, but i dont feel the trauma of it the same way i would experience it in a media intended for an adult audience. i read the things i carried (tim obrien, it was really emotional) and i still carry the weight of kurt lemons death. it still hurts a bit to think about. i hate the hell that is divides media deemed for children vs adults.

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New Year’s Queue 2017

(I mean, I guess it’s for 2017. Maybe 2018?)

So, I have decided that I am going to use the month of December to write hopefully write at least 6 one shots (maybe more!) to queue for New Year’s Day. (Because, why not I have enough unfinished projects, what’s one more? :D)

I’ve created a little interest survey located here —> This is the survey!

Before I start writing, I want you guys input, so let me know what you’re interested in seeing before I go crazy and just write goddess knows what....

So let me know... ;)

[fallish]

i feel like we all hc roxas as an angry boi but like he is actually so soft when hes just out there likeing his life. you see again and again in 358/2 that he cares deeply about his friends and he doesnt want to fight the fight he has to. he cares about being wronged and

[fallish]

things the dumpster fire of the american school system has taught that you should un-learn

1. admitting ignorance is always wrong. it isnt. in fact, sometimes its the only way to learn new things. everyone starts somewhere and usually that somewhere is admitting to not knowing how to do something or not knowing anything about a problem. its often a key element in life to knowing how to communicate your ignorance. it helps you build new relationships and understand existing ones.

2. if you are not giving 100% to everything, you are not trying hard enough. no. just no. if you can only give a subject so much of your attention, you might a) still be doing your best b) not like it very much, or c) not need it as much as the other subjects you know you will need later in life. i didnt give 100% to some of my french classes, and i felt really guilty about it because i thought that people would judge me for not being good enough. your best only has to be the best for you and nobody else. your trying hard enough. you dont have to be giving 100% all the time. its not healthy.

3. high school is the easier than college. eat my dick. high school is full of requirement classes and drama and all that good shit yes. but college is basically the same thing except you are picking out what you want from that. my last year of high school was basically my last year of college. i got to take 2 math classes and a cs class and it was rockin. it was hard. studying doesnt really get easier. it may get more enjoyable. but not easier. you work for what you want and you dont really ever stop.

4. may i? yes you dont have to ask, if you have to leave, leave. if taking yourself out of a situation will make you more comfortable, do it. dont wait for someone else to give you permission.

5. youre not going to college to have fun. yeah you are. your gonna have so much fun. whether it be classes, clubs, new interests, new friends, whatever, youre gonna have fun. find people who are like you. meet people who are nothing like you. fuckin. go expand your world view. know that you can stay in your town and still find a way to do this. also it can be really fuckin lonely if you dont so fuckin go find people that you like. dont let yourself suffer and at least try to make friends. please.

[fallish]

i love you but i havent admitted it to anyone. not even myself.

he is so much like me. he lacks the anger. the bitterness. he resents the years. but he lets it go. and he breathes.

[fallish]

people who give me little reminders that they love me rock by the way

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somewhere on this mindfuck of a website, someone said that we needed to find our way back to ‘da club’. now, i must expand on that point. so like we all know how tik tok is getting ridiculously popular among the youth today, yes? have you noticed that a lot of the songs and trends that got popular came out in 2012?

so between 2001 and ~2015 escapism was like legit really big in American music. why, you ask? well partially because of the way politics were going and war and we wanted to think about something fun and good, so everyone went clubbing. actually let me revise to say that everyone who wasnt feeling really patriotic or anti-war went clubbing. while those strong feelings folks went to fight the establishment, whatever establishment they chose, the rest of tried to literally go anywhere else.

so the news is real fuckin bad and the rest of us are going well fuck that - like “my life is a party my home is the club” - and music reflects that extremely well. for a hot second after 2012, we saw more pulling troops back home, and we got female pop sensations and solo artists. thats still going on we have got taylor swift and ariana grande but we are seeing a return of the band and rap and electronic music. the rise of new soundcloud rappers and music that once more turns to escapism are now being reflected on tik tok and the radio.

so what happened? the news. again. we are finding our way back to the club now because fricking politics took another nose dive.

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New Year’s Queue Update!

Starting at Midnight tonight, Eastern Time (because I am on the East Coast) fics inspired by the New Year’s Prompts you guys voted will be posted every 3 hours automatically.

I am setting this up now because I have already cracked open the Sangria! (Don’t worry, there is a pizza on the way...) 

I wish you all a joyous new year! Thank you for putting up with my crazy and for all your love and support! Having awesome readers makes writing so much more fun!

I am excited about 2018, and I can’t wait to see you there! <3