#nexa rambles

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I'm a Vash is taller truther purely because i think it would piss Wolfwood off. Thank you, have a nice day

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i love reading a longfic where the notes are the author going "i know this was originally listed as 16 chapters, now it's 18 but i promise it won't be longer than that" and then scrolling back up to the chapter count that's in the 30's lol

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Reading Trigun fic after watching Tristamp: Vash drinking??? And smoking??? Weird???

After watching Trigun '98: oh no, he should have been drunker actually

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There's something about Vash's Tomorrows monolog.... a tiny little detail... that just fucks me up even more.

It's that after "I want to spend my tomorrows with him" he adds

"Right, Wolfwood?"

And I. I do not have the ability to articulate what it is about that that makes it hurt worse. The want for reciprocation or acknowledgement? Maybe even an understanding that Wolfwood would feel the same (cause he does)? The hand he reaches out, metaphorically, silently, where no one can see? The desperation in what he knows is happening, what he knows is coming, and what he wants in a way he never lets himself? Vash doesn't let himself hang around anyone for too long, but with Wolfwood... that's all he wants, all he asks for.

Anyway I'm gonna go curl up in a corner and resume my sobbing thx

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There is a post on this website somewhere that describes the way Wolfwood treats the Punisher vs how Vash treats his gun and i need it immediately, someone pls help me find it 🥺🥺🥺

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Slowly dragging coworkers and friends alike into trigun... got two to watch the anime, one of them watched both versions and is reading the manga, the other has plans to read it. Several other coworkers have expressed interest or plans to watch it.... many questions have been asked about what it's about and which version to watch first....

Spreading the brainrot

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Finished Trimax!! What the fuck was that, friends??? What was that!!!

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More musing about trimax below the cut

I can't stop thinking about when in Trimax Wolfwood points his gun at Vash from behind. What do you think is happening in Vash's head??? Cause everywhere else in Trigun Vash has so much awareness of his surroundings that he would know what's happening behind him, right?

So like.... do you think it's trust that WW won't pull the trigger? Giving him space to figure it out and accepting his decision? Like "if Wolfwood decides I'm too dangerous this isn't a bad way to go"? Or do you think that he's really just so secure in Wolfwood's presence that he drops that guard he normally has up?

But he doesn't turn around that's the thing!! I don't believe he doesn't know I mean look at this panel

That's a man who knows he has a gun to his back and it's his closest friend with his finger to the trigger. God i'm not putting all my thoughts into the right words but like. UGH. I want inside his head in this scene. Is it more self-sacrificing bullshit? Is it something leaning more towards suicidal tendencies? Or is it more to do with their particular relationship??? IS IT AN OPTION I'M NOT EVEN THINMING ABOUT? IS IT ALL OF IT?

His face says so much but i need to crawl into his chest about this. I have so many feelings and I haven't articulated any of them correctly but I had to tryyyy

Mkay back to gnawing through the walls of my enclosure

Edit/addition: after talking to a friend i realized i forgot to consider how Vash wouldn't allow himself to be killed before facing Knives. Somehow that makes this worse to me?? Like he'd let Wolfwood hurt him just like he's let so many other people do the same. Another scar to add to the collection. He wouldn't even fight back. God, I have so many feelings